Trav's Touchstone

I highly recommend a daily gratitude practice. Its been transformational for me and my perspective (bipolar depression)

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today I joined the league of speccy gentlemen.

Had a lovely chill day with wifey today. Epic crash coming im still tired and catching up from Wednesday.

Made it through another day sober. I think left to my own devices I may have started a week long run.

Will I? Most definitely not. Thats why im checking in multiple times a day.

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I’m glad you’re here and I’m glad you’re checking in. I’m sorry that you’ve been challenged so much.
Repeating, I’m glad you’re here and I’m glad you’re checking in. I’m sorry that you’ve been challenged so much. It’s one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time, one second at a time. :heart:

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Makes me happy you have a space here where you are safe, where you can check in and share. We’re in this together & the opposite of addiction is connection. To yourself, to your fellow humans, to the world and cosmos in general. Hugs.

Nice specs. They do make you look different. Sort of adult and grown up all of a sudden. :sweat_smile: :smiling_face_with_sunglasses: :people_hugging:

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Thank you Menno, haha yeah even my and mum both said they make me look different.

funnily enough ive always wanted glasses. I guess I just like the aesthetic.

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Did you get them for looks or because you need help to see?
They look nice on you. Or I should say you look nice with them on.

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At 42 my eyes are slowly letting me down.

So yup they are needed. Both my near site and have dropped off significantly in the last couple of years so I thought it was time to get them checked.

Thank you im very pleased with them too.

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Ooo I like the glasses they suit you :smiling_face:

I myself am a glasses wearer take a bit of getting used to :joy:

Glad you’re still standing strong . It’s hard sometimes , as prepared as I am for the weekend doesn’t stop the urges.

We’ve got this though :flexed_biceps::smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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Day 3.

What a stunner of a day.

It started with a coffee and hang times with someone ive been helping with sobriety.

Was nice to be able to sit down and have an honest conversation about how we choose to go down this path. What leads us to use and what makes want to be sober.

I got my yard work done then went out for my usual saturday cd/dvd hunt this is my way of staying busy after being busy.

Ending with dinner that was paid up for us by said friend from this morning.

So had a meeting at home. Stayed sober. Helped a friend stay sober.

One day at a time team. Much love.

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Talking recovery with a friend is a great way to spend some time.

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Sounds like a good day to me , glad you’re feeling positive and just voicing things with someone is always great . :blush:

Happy Saturday , you got this :+1:

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How’s it going today?

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Just got woken up by concrete saw outside my house :rofl: was at least at a decent time.

Still sick. Im okish. Trying not to worry about things to much before I unbalance again. Certain triggers are appearing and im just doing my best to cope.

Watching my days grow again is tough but its good these is only sobriety. No other choice.

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In 8 days I get to see one of my favourite bands I havent seen before.

It means 3 days alone in my old home city. I have decided ill go out the day I land do what I gotta do in town then try and chill day of concert maybe catch up with some friends also going from out of town. Ones I trust with my sobriety.

I have 0 intention on drinking at all while im there. Even easier if I have my friends car to use.

I’ll check in here if I need to keep myself safe.

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For me, sober gigging felt a bit weird at first. So far this year I’ve done a dozen, even to the point of choosing to go to a gig to actually help me to stay sober and keep the boredom demons at bay. Now it’s become a second nature to stay sober for them.

I don’t miss missing part of it because I have to go to the bar and push past thousands of people to get there and then back to my vantage point. Same goes for when I need the toilet.

I’m more present for it all and remember more of it.

I still let go and dance like an idiot but right now I don’t actually care. If truth be told - no one is looking at me and thinking “Oh look at that guy dancing like an idiot.” They’ve probably got their own hang-ups to worry about. It’s more likely they see me and are thinking “Oh look at that guy dancing like an idiot, but look at him having such a good time and constantly smiling.” :blush: I used to get a bit self conscious about stuff like that so I’d drink for liquid confidence. I don’t need to.

The goosebumps and spine shudders feel better.

I’m not getting ripped off for £10 a pint and I don’t have to solve a calculation like the square root of pythagoras theorum to work out how many pre-drinks to have and how many beers I can afford in the venue.

I’ve heard so many good things about Deftones and I’m a bit jel. You’re gonna fuckin love it! :sign_of_the_horns::smiling_face_with_sunglasses:

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Man im looking forward to this gig heaps.

Its the anxiety im not looking forward to and being in a city that reminds me of way to much wasted life. Auckland is where I was deep in active addiction and party life. Its a place where I can walk into bars and drink for free.

I also hate crowds while im sober. Ill find myself a spot to chill im capable of rolling solo sober.

Im there to enjoy a band I haven’t seen thats been on my list for years. Im sure ill be ok.

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I saw the Deftones and Korn years ago. Good show!

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Nice, I saw Korn once I have absolutely no recollection of the gig at all. Biohazard also played that night.

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I saw pink floyds tear down the wall tour. I was told I had a great time. Tickets cost a fortune.

Primus is playing in Bend. I wish I could go. May 22. I’ll be fishin

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I wonder how many of us bravely come here and can be as free as we want without censoring ourselves to much?

I definitely censor myself heaps am weary of what I share. I know I try my best not to share imagery or use triggering words unless I actively have to state what it is im talking about.

I try my best to articulate in ways so everyone understands what im putting down. If I didnt ypi guys would likely be reading the diary of a mad man or feel like you were. I actively have to manage every aspect of what I put in here.

I like it here you guys are my sober home and refuge.

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