Hello. I saw examples of other people creating a thread to share their journey. I think it’s a great way to talk to others that are going through the same addiction to create a support network and also to help with accountability. I’m 37 and I’ve always struggled with alcohol. The relationship is very up and down. Days without drinking or binging. I couldn’t find the healthy balance and I think I’m ready to admit I can’t find it because it does not exist for me and it never will. I will share more as I go, as I have to run, but I think this is a good start 
I can’t wait to connect with people because this is a scary thing to do and I want to learn from all of you amazingly strong people.
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Im excited to follow your journey. Im 37yo too. We have so much life left to give and we’re capable of so much more sober!
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Stay positive 
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Welcome Trish. Glad you found us.
ODAAT.
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Welcome! Yeah, it gets to a point where three is too many and four is not enough
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That is really a great way to put it.
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Congratulations on taking the first step! You are going to feel soooooo much better! I’ll be coming up on three years in May. And sometimes people ask me if I wish I could just have one or two drinks. And honestly, no. I don’t even see the point of having one beer. There are tons and tons of celebrities who are now sober. I was watching one the other day and he said something that made me laugh. He said, look, I’ve never had one of anything! Lol. I have an addictive personality, it doesn’t matter what it is. But keep coming back! We all have the same thing in common, but everybody has their own story/journey. There are some great people on here. And it is worldwide! Best wishes, Bobby.
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Thank you so much! I literally just looked up an app for this in the Play store and tried this one. It’s so great that there’s a community and everyone has been great. This is only my day 1, but I’m happy I found this 
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Well done. I look forward to following and being apart of your journey. ODAAT
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Welcome to TS Trish,
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So far, so good. Last night I had a dream about drinking, though. I was celebrating something and was like I’ll just start over Monday, which is my routine for anything related to my health. At first, I felt bad and like it was a sign I’ll fail. On the other hand, in the dream, I moved (and was super happy about it) and was going out to celebrate the next phase in my life. Like leaving something behind, but was happy about it. I’m trying to frame it as maybe it was inspired by this choice and that’s why I had the dream. Anyone else have drinking dreams in the beginning of your journey?
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@TrishK that is what I said the recovery field call a drunk dream. I actually enjoy having dreams like that because I wake up clean and I feel grateful to be in recovery and that it was only a dream
Now that I’m thinking about it I don’t think I know of anyone in recovery that I know that doesn’t have some kind of drug dreams or drunk dreams
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That’s kinda how I’m looking at it. At first, I took it as maybe I don’t think I can really do this, but now I’m looking at it as this is why I need to and maybe this is a sign that I’m ready to not go back. It’s a big, scary thing! I also just remembered the celebration in my dream did not work out because of people’s availability. I can definitely interpret that in a positive way! Thanks for responding
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It is tough Trish…I am 37 yrs old as well. Thank you for sharing your story. I’ve been encouraged for myself and others the few times I’ve browsed stories from my emails. You’ve inspired me to share mine. I’ve recently had to accept that I can no longer talk about wanting to be sober…my rational mind understands the benefits…but now I have to do the work, endure the pain, the turmoil of emotions I’ve ran from for so long. Some nights, most nights I feel ready- in the sense of knowing I will have discomfort to face, but in the morning when responsibilites, a life waiting to be lived is in front of me…I wanted to choose and not have circumstances choose for me. Maybe thats literally the next step right now- choosing the next right thing. And for me that is to take a shower. Hopefully after that, I’ll do the next right thing. Thank you again Trish for sharing- reading and responding to your post has helped me in a tough moment.
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How are you doing today? @TrishK
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I’m so happy it helped! We have to remember how strong we are
I’m okay. I did have a quick thought of having a glass of wine a couple minutes ago because it’s been a long, busy day (which won’t be done until 730pm and I started at 6am) for a hot second. I was like wait you don’t drink anymore…lol. So weird the auto thoughts that come up. I am 3 days today How are you today?
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I am doing very well. Today is 365 days sober with tomorrow being official 1 year as 2024 was Leap Year. I feel I can easily do another year since it will only be 365 days to accomplish. One day at a time.
Congrats on your 3 days. I was there too. We all have to start at the beginning.
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You’re amazing!
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Went to a bar (one of my regular spots) tonight because my husband and I like to play darts and it’s been a busy week already. I had a diet Coke and a soda water with a splash of cranberry and a splash of lime. Very proud of myself! $2.5 compared to the $15 it would have been. That felt good too. I was proud of myself! I’ve also attended a couple secular AA groups and I found them really helpful. I’m just listening for now, but it’s great to hear other people’s experiences
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