That is a great build and mindset. Keep at it…the urges don’t last and I do hope that your day gets easier as you push through 
You are doing great 
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I have not checked in in a few days. It’s been a bit of a grind but I am continuing to build my awareness and noticing thoughts and stressors that would sweep me away. Today I need to take care of myself by getting through the day and then getting some sleep. I have to stay vigilant because a slip up can spiral so fast.
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Absolutely right. That spiral is scary and we don’t have a guarantee that we will come out of it so best to stay on course. .
Great to see you checking in. Hope you are able to find time for self care today🙏🏽
Ugggggggggggggggh relapsed. Was my longest streak in a while but I just…honestly I don’t want to pretend to have some lesson to have learned immediately after. I had pivotal moments to make choices and I didn’t make them and I’m responsible for that.
I chose the vice over self-care 
I’m sorry that the addict voice won. I promise you that the self care would have been and felt better. Don’t let the relapse define you. Throw out whatever is left and start fresh from this moment. Take a shower/ hydrate / go to a meeting or recovery group/ sleep…just don’t sit in the addiction spiral
I am using my web blockers and now I am getting work done. I know how this goes. Internet surfing leads to porn and I have to put in the effort.
Great job on putting up the web blockers. Whatever you need to do to keep you free of triggers
Check out other PMO threads here…some great advice and tactics to keep you on track.
I completely fell apart today. I feel like I just got swept away by my phone and then by porn and I’m just so tired of it. I’m going to start with having a clean hour and then come back tomorrow and try to put the pieces back together.
My wife needs me right now and I am failing her. I’m not managing my stress. I’m putting a bandaid over it with immense consequences. I spent some time on this site earlier today and seeing people with 100s of days of sobriety and good habits has just made me realize that this is possible, but I’m not committing the way that I need to.
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I’m sorry that things have been so stressful. Glad you aren’t letting the relapse take over. This moment right now is the perfect time to reset that timer and start again.
Many great threads here that can help you find healthier ways to deal with stress and give you tips on how to stay on course. Glad you are reading through and going to commit fully to your journey. ODAAT 
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Was about to relapse again. Came here to make a plan. Going to meditate and go to bed. Tomorrow I am going to make my to do list and really focus on getting through just tomorrow.
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That a great step forward… coming here instead of relapsing. That’s progress. Have a good night. We all just need to work on taking each day on a moment at a time. Setting up a plan is smart.
A reminder to myself. When I sit on my phone or pmo I hurt my body. I hurt my marriage. I hurt my career. I hurt my happiness. I don’t want my life defined by hurt.
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Day 2 went well because I was super busy all day. Woke up with urges. Came here instead of YouTube. Heading to work now. Remembering that this addiction hurts the people I care about in my life and urges are not commands. They are just thoughts.
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Another day is awesome work! Have a wonderful day at work. Baby steps to get through the day…it is all about changing up routines and rewiring our minds.
Coming here instead of YouTube is a wonderful action. Keep em coming
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Making my way through day 3. Writing here to remind myself that I can only get through day three. Not the future, not the past. Also here to remind myself that my past actions have hurt others and hurt myself. My workout this morning was so much harder because I spent ten hours on the phone a few days ago. Those effects go away if I just stay off the phone. I need to stop hurting my marriage, my career, and my goals. My purpose in life has to be more than sitting on this phone on the toilet or on the couch.
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Doing awesome friend…day 3 with a purpose . We can and need to only focus on the day at hand…past and future only jumble up things. Keep up the great work
Had another urge and decided to come here instead. Yesterday was good. Prepped for hosting Christmas all day. This morning needs to be efficient. Lots to do but I do have time to do it! Just need to breathe, remember that thoughts are not commands and remember that sitting on my phone hurts my body, especially on the toilet.
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So glad that you came here instead of giving into your urges. Some great reminders you have and just keep them repeating in your mind. You have a lot to get done today and need a clear mind to accomplish that.
Do remember to breathe and enjoy your day. The urges will pass and you will feel better for not have given into them
A Merry Christmas / happy holidays to you and your family.
Hope you are doing well today
Just wanted to give you a link to another thread that may be helpful to you. A few other threads here as well if you are interested.
Have yourself a wonderful day!