My closest friend’s mam went through it with terminal cancer, I knew her a bit but was mainly there at the end to support my friend, very tough.
Then today my colleague of ten years and friend, he died during his commute home in a fatal collision.
Just like that, gone. So sad. I keep seeing his smile.
I’m ok, but kind of go into what I call zombie mode. My brain shuts down and won’t think. I had an urge to go climb something really really hard to focus my attention (but didn’t). No urge to drink, in case any one was wondering. Just very sad.
I am so sorry for your losses. That is rough. Whether a death is expected or not, it is always something we have to process. I’m glad you don’t have the urge to drink,and you know where to come if you do. Take care.