Wow I’ve thought about this day for 15 years alway wondering if it could ever happen to me ??? But today WE have Two Years !!! I was ok with dying shooting myself 7 times a day not caring if I died just waiting for it to come…before I would use I would video myself saying goodbye to love ones because I didn’t want anyone blaming themselves for my choices…now how things have changed two cars 4 credit cards two bank accounts but still my live life is lonely here in jersey it’s hard but I’m clean and wish I would have known i could post here