Welcome T. I feel that by coming here you have set your first step towards quitting drinking successfully. Because we can’t do this alone. We need each other. We need our peers. Meetings can help, in person or online. Many different possibilities for that of which AA is the best known but by far not the only. This place can help. Read around here, gain knowledge about drinking, about alcohol, about addiction, about how to fight addiction. Share. Support. Be supported. We’re in this together friend and I’m glad you’re here. Strength in numbers.
One thing I’d like to say about what you tell us. I think these crazy thoughts that consume you come from drinking. So it’s the other way around. Alcohol doesn’t help you, or us, cope with our problems. It just makes them worse and worse. Alcohol is the worst coping mechanism there is. We need other coping mechanism to make it in life. Healthy ones. We need a plan to make it through life sober. For example, have a look at this thread. One of the most helpful here. But there’s much more. Take your time. Welcome again and wishing you all success friend.