Hi C, I’m sorry to hear about your struggle. At the same time I am happy to see you recognize the problem and you are working on it.
I promise you, I promise: you can beat this.
I have invited you to the thread for men working through porn / masturbation / sex addiction, you will find a lot of valuable insight there. In addition, Neal posted a lot of valuable links here (in my own case finding a program for support was a significant step forward in my recovery - it may be worthwhile for you as well; it is at least worth looking at your options):
Looking forward to getting to know you better brother. You are not alone. You are a good person who deserves a safe, sober life where he can be his full self.