This has happened a couple times before, the first sober. So it was weird and caught me off guard I guess. I also don’t have many friends left from years of working crazy hours and continual isolating… so it sucked more i guess.
Since college I have always tended to have closer stronger friendships with women even where they had SOs, who always had no issues with it AFAIK. Idk how it really started… Or why. Even my bartenders that became good friends outside the bar were almost always women.
As a result, over the years (generally when i was younger) lines would blur after years a few times…You know like tripping and falling into a bed without clothes on accident (crazy how that can happen on accident). As i got older that happened less frequently b/c life happened and we adulted better, less hormones, i work too much, and we had more common interests (i work around/in fashion, like retail therapy, like cooking, a good salon – oh and drinking). Also – I didn’t have the time for a long game or to have anyone too close even if it was just friends. I was often accused of being guarded and aloof when i wasn’t social party Goat. Maybe it was being a tiny bit more vulnerable from sobering up… that made it seem as if things changed – who knows.
In any event – I need to focus on my sobriety right now and not fleeting emotional entanglements. Unless the cute woman in my meeting… ( I KID I KID ).