This is my first time really admitting that I have a problem and not cutting myself slack for other factors at play. I’m recently out of college, started drinking with the binge drinking culture there and haven’t grown out of it. It’s only gotten worse. I’ve had countless “bad nights,” where I black out and can’t take care of myself, where people I love have to go out of their way to make sure I’m okay, where I visit home and disappoint my parents time after time with my drinking. Every time I feel like I can set limits I end up breaking them eventually, and I’m tired of letting everyone down. I had another bad night this weekend and several friends confronted me about my problem. My parents did too. I have a relatively successful job and life other than drinking, but there are lots of things going on with my mental health right now, including mild bipolar disorder (which I only aggravate by drinking) and my parents not accepting my sexuality and partner, and I would give myself a break on these bad moments because I felt like messing up was inevitable. I don’t want to live with this shame and regret anymore, I want to make people proud and especially myself. Looking for support via this app and my therapist and hoping I can make it through my initial goal of 30 days and then years. Thanks for sharing your experiences and helping me feel less alone
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Thanks for sharing your story 
Remember it’s your recovery. Keep it simple, aim for a day at a time and they will add up. You got this.
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