Day four and I’m still scared of relapse … I found that I do way to much for people … I am always about helping , but I get screwed over by the people who i think are the last people that will mess me over … I totally forget about what I need and what I need to do for myself to stay in one peace … the bad part is it’s in my character to care for others … putting up a wall isn’t possible cause it only makes me angry… then when all this happens drinking sounds good … how do i pull back from everyone and just Focus on me for a fucking change…
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I can completely relate.
I just had to shut everyone out, and those who knew me close, I told them that I had to deal with it on my own and not bother me with their problems.
You have to be extremely selfish in your recovery, especially when helping people ultimately are your trigger to use/drink.