Life has been a struggle lately. As some of you know i ended a five year relationship two months ago and had to move away from the city back to my small hometown with my parents. Im going to be 26 in December and the economy here isnt the best and I havent been able to find a job although ive applied to 30 places. I have monthly bills to take care of! I finally landed an interview for the juvenile justice services and it was full time which is rare out here! I felt that i needed to get it so I could finally feel like I was going to be able to pull myself together AND show my ex im not the failure he thinks I am, and that I dont need him as much as he thought. Well, I found out today that i didnt get the job. Needless to say I was emotionally upset. I drove to the liquor store with the thought “who am I kidding… i feel so unwanted. Who cares if I get drunk.” When I got to the liquor store I called my dad and my best friend to vent and decided I wasnt going to let myself down once again and I went to smiths and got some Halo Top ice cream instead… And that brings me to my quote today " When something bad happens you have three choices: You can let it define you, let it destroy you or let it strengthen you." 10 days sober today.
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That’s impressive, kandee, I hope I’ll be as strong as you when I find myself in such a situation. I’m sorry for you didn’t get the job, I’m sure you’ll find one if you continue your hard work!
Awesome effort. Lifes knocks can be hard. Power to you for staying strong. 
Well done!!! What a big test you have passed!!!..I would of done the same in that situation…when struggling…chocolate or ice cream:)
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Way to go!! Sometimes life doesn’t give us eveything we want when we want it so that we can stand up, make the right choice and take control of our decisions. The struggles, when we “choose” the right way, are what give us strength. Big victory for you!! When you made a call to someone instead of walking into the liquor store, you took back some of the power you have let your disease have for so long. That is awesome!! Remember that, because disappointment will come again as life is like that, but you are learning the tools to fight that. This may also be the universes/God’s way of telling you there is something better out there. I’m a nurse by trade, when I first got sober, I had to quite for a while and do something completely different with less pressure, I cleaned houses for a year. The pay sucked but I did what I needed to do to keep myself sane while I got healthier mentally, so I could stay sober. Be patient, the right job, the right guy, the right stuff will come along when you’re ready. Just don’t drink, get into a recovery program where you can be taught how to live life on life’s terms and keep reaching out. You got this! Stay strong, stay sober, stay connected! 
Well done…keep it up…way to cope with a craving…awesome!