Prayer
Meditation
2 way prayer
Yoga
Done the main share at my AA meeting
Gym
Last week I got a new sponsor and I’m going to do the steps again
Prayer
Meditation
2 way prayer
Yoga
Done the main share at my AA meeting
Gym
Last week I got a new sponsor and I’m going to do the steps again
My schedule from Weds-Sun is a combo of gym and teaching english classes. Mon/Tues are my days off where i play video games and go walking somewhere in Guangzhou. Video games are my hobby and keep me off booze.
I’m about to make a successful crab landing on a Friday with Saturday off. The perfect storm for an alcoholic fisherman to go have a drink and tell lies at the bar all night with other alcoholic fishermen.
I am coming here before I offload to remind myself why its a bad idea.
If I have that first drink, I become a million times more likely to do drugs if they cross my path and they always cross my path when I have a drink with the boys after a fishing trip.
I haven’t blacked out and made a gigantic ass out of myself since the last time I let the temptation of that first drink trick me into thinking it was a good idea. Coincidence? highly unlikely!
I have come to far to fall backwards.
My old drinking buddies are the same miserable alcoholics they were when I drank with them. Because nothing changes, if nothing changes. I have changed everything!
Because I’m high on life and I dont need to fuck that up with booze and drugs.
✿ Prayer and Bible study
✿ Gratitude
✿ Checked in with others
✿ Did my morning freshening up
✿ Helped husband out with his needs
✿ Played with our cat and took care of his needs
✿ Worked out at home since we are snowed in
✿ About to cook up some breakfast tacos and watch movies
✿ Hit a later online meeting
Both of us have been feeling a bit burnt out, so calling it a low stakes day. Lots of relaxation and recharge
@JasonFisher stay strong. you can do it. Think about how wonderful you feel tomorrow and all the money you will save. Your buddies will be waking hangover and a lot of money drained out of their bank accounts.
It’s been 3 days since I posted here and have put any thought into what I’m actually doing to stay sober everyday. Yesterday I came really close to caving and grabbing that first drink. So I think this might be a good thing for me to practice everyday
Day 15
AA lunchtime meeting
Big book reading
Catch up here
Check in, gratitude and 100 day challenge
Knitting, films and cuddling up on the sofa in this freezing weather
Day 16
Self Care. Sleep, rest and eat healthy.
Gratitude. feeling it and living it.
Editing, preparing camera crew, I’m on call. If I get the call, im ready, if I dont get the call, Im ready.
Checking in.
What drink is the worst one? The first one!
Day 17
I haven’t done much of anything at all. Went to bed at 11 last night and have been awake since the ungodly time of 2:35 this morning. So pretty much all I’ve done is had a lazy day because anything else seems impossible today. So for today:
I enjoyed an unexpected day off.
Video editing in between naps.
I wanted to get more work done around my place but my body wanted rest, so I listened to it.
I did some prep work on a painting I plan to work on tomorrow.
I’m feeling good about myself today and that’s good or my recovery.
I slept good. I feel good. My body appreciated the rest.
In my morning meditation, roots and causes kept coming up. As I go about my day and week, I will think about this and see where it goes.
I am mostly ready for tomorrows crab trip. We are over the three week mark since we started pulling gear. The opener is pretty much over. There is a ton of stress getting ready and participating in this fishery. The stress is over. That feels good. We decided to wait for the nicer day tomorrow.
My inner artist is in full bloom. I am feeding it and allowing it do do whatever it wants to do. That feels awesome! feeling awesome is good for my recovery.