Hi
I’ve never posted on this thread before so I hope I’m doing it right.
It’s my first day and I’m trying to (1) stay positive.
(2) Try to read things here and ignore the panic attacks. I know they’re not real it’s just withdrawal. (3) I’ll write down the things I’m grateful for. (4) One day at a time.
Not much, I know, but I hope to do more tomorrow.
Also, I’ve ran out of likes, but here’s a few hearts for everyone who’s posted here: ×640 (the current number of posts)
I get ideas from everyone, thank you all for that.
Checking in before fishing so I dont fall asleep before I do like yesterday.
Getting the camera crew ready. Each camera was paid for with beer money savings.
Meditation.
Nature.
Gratitude,
Hopefully catching big fish all day long!
Baking some chocolate chip banana bread for my kids
Housework & laundry
Watching a TV show for me !! It’s always on whatever my partner or kids want and frankly I can’t remember when I last watched something I actually wanted to ( probably while folding the laundry though )
Today, I am job-hunting. But also, my partner has been working nightshift, so I’m going to head to the supermarket shortly and pick up some groceries - I’m intending to cook a Chicken & Meatball Jambalaya for her.
I used to cook quite regularly and enjoyed it, but haven’t done much recently. My partner is also a hard one to impress as she’s a trained chef (before changing career), so fingers crossed it gets her mark of approval
I am doing today
Exercise dog in rain (never would have drunk when raining)
Praying for others
Step work
Telephone with wonderful sponsor
Bookkeeping
Chores and maybe some time to bake
Staying sober
I came straight home when I got off the water.
I took a nap.
Checking in.
Cooking a healthy dinner.
Editing.
Resting.
The weather is giving me day off tomorrow. I’m excited to paint. Hangover free and steady hands.
I worked on steps this morning with coffee, and checked in with my sponsor who is in Mexico (love whats app). I attended my homegroup, it has been one year since I opened that meeting, time flies. I shared my experience strength and hope. I volunteered to open next week. Now I am scrolling through TS.
The headache is still there and I’m still in physical pain so leaving the house is out of the question today.
• today I will attend two meetings
• I’m going to paint - haven’t done that for a long time.
• going to tell my drs I need my antidepressants increasing
• drink more coffee! - I have ADHD so it works the opposite way and chills me out. If I’m not overthinking I feel more at peace.
Early to bed early to rise. I got good sleep.
Morning meditation done.
On the water or off, I have been making time for morning meditation.
This morning I visualized being grounded and rooted in recovery. I visualized my roots going deep into the earth.
I feel grounded. A drink feels far away this morning.
I have been editing, organizing, getting the camera crew ready for the next trip.
As I continue to put energy into all the things that I have invested time, energy and money into to help keep me sober Im feeling a little emotional. Good emotions. Its all coming together. All I have to do is not take that first drink and im 1000 times less likely to fuck it all up!
@Soli Day 3! Glad your here! Day four is when I started to feel a little better each day physically.
@ImNotMe Day 2 was rough for me. Drink lots of water and sleep as much as you can. It gets better. Im glad your here!