I just want to say thank you guys for being so supportive. Here’s where I’m at.
I have been extremely tired lately and my migraines have came back slightly that I used to suffer from chronically.I believe thats from lack of exercise and bad eating.However, I have a massage in the morning, that should help.
I took zzquil a few times within getting sober but I wanted to be clear headed and stopped taking that as well as excedrin. I’m in a very slow process of cleansing my body of all the toxins but I want my health back, badly.Thats what drives me forward.
I am up right now because I took a nap and I’m sitting here thinking about all the progress I’ve made over the past 26 days…
I didn’t realize how serious I was about quitting. I genuinely had no idea I’d make it this far.
I have spent more time with my husband, More time with family, have woken up without regrets, been able to choose my words better, have woken up without wondering who I text or called and what I said.Havent felt embarrassed when I was out with friends for needing to get a 2nd or 3rd beer, or been counting the time til I could go grab a 6 pack after my 1 beer with friends and noone would know.
Haven’t had to hide beers, or worry if my husband would find them.One day I might confess that to him, when I have more time under my belt and feel stronger.
I’ve cleaned up the shop we are taking over, and am able to focus on our business together.
I no longer risk my life and others by driving drunk/under the influence.
I now have given myself the chance to grow emotionally.
My past will make me stronger.I made alot of mistakes but thats okay.It may have been embarassing at once but just like anything It will make me who I am one day, and I am already proud of that.
One thing is clear, I need this app.right now at least.
I need the support.I come here to vent, find others that relate to me, and find some for of guidance. I appreciate it so so much.
@Restlesssoul so happy for you. Its true, without our health (both mentally & physically) we really have nothing. I realise that I have been playing Russian roulette with my health for a very long time and so far have been lucky but that could all change with the next bottle. Here’s to a happy, healthy, sober future to all of us. 
@Restlesssoul
Way to go!!! Great idea about the massage. You deserve to be kind to yourself. Yes we have all done things we are ashamed of through our addictions and some get caught up in that shame and beat themselves up. What we did in our active drinking ate simply that, things we DID, they do not define who we are, especially as sober people trying to move forward. You are in what we call in AA, the pink cloud, it’s a moment of sober euphoria when we have cleared the dust from our heads and reflect on the past and actually look forward to a future. Unfortunately, the cloud doesn’t last and life creeps back in as it does. That’s why its extremely important to develop a routine for our day, even a simple one, stay close to whatever support system you are involved with and when you’re struggling, reach out to those who have been where u are. We are never alone in this! Keep up the good work! Stay strong, stay sober! 
@Oliverjava
Of course we can be happy when we are happy and recovery is a “one day at a time”, “live in the moment” kind of thing, but recovery is never always going to be rainbows and unicorns and we have to be prepared and have a plan of what we are going to do when those uncomfortable moments creep in so that we don’t get “stuck” there. It’s just a part of life. Regardless, life sober is so much better than life stuck in active addiction. Stay strong, stay sober.
This is amazing, well done you 