The anxiety! Awful feeling
Only 18 days, so you may want to listen to some of our more seasoned members 
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Remembering that I will massively regret my decision in the morning if I do opt to drink…I get really bad “hangxiety” and depression that lasts for up to a week after drinking, and the physical hangovers themselves are horrific now since I’m not constantly pouring booze down my throat. I hate wasting a day (or days), and booze makes me do just that. I enjoy being productive, I thrive on it.
Also remembering the fact that every time I do drink, it NEVER ends up being what I drummed it up to be in my head. It’s disappointment, every time, and then I hate myself for it. Sounds like a good time, eh?
I’m just so settled with the fact that I am truly better off without it, just like I’m truly better off never eating mayonnaise again because I hate it. I am happier, I can go about my life without guilt or fear, and I never need to worry about waking up with a hangover ever again or worrying about what I said or did. I wake up clear-headed and free.
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Perfect! Mayo is nasty shit. As is alcohol. Well played!
My SOS and SMART groups really help ground me. As do my whack ass friends here. @anon37742172 @CaptAZ @Jante76 @Neighbrofthebeast668 @DungeonMaster @MoCatt @Meggers @Englishd @C-sun etc etc etc. 
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Mayonnaise: Never again! 
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Mayonnaise makes me feel icky. It’s like a bad touch. 
I’ve tried so many times to become sober. I hope Sober Time can help me kick the alcohol for good!
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Whoooooaaaaaaa. That’s uncalled for folks. Mayo is food from the heavens. Simple. Delicious. Carb free.
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Miracle whip > mayo
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Where’s my glove. I need to challenge you to a dual properly.
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Drinking is simply not an option anymore…and if that doesnt work, I think of all the stupid stuff i would do drunk. (My apologies in interrupting the train of thought that was going, should have read the thread before I responded)
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I wish i could frown face this statement.
Im trying the same approach.
Starting to get more involved with AA, sober is good, but time to fix what made me drink
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Lol i definitely am too.
My kids and husband for sure. I have a group on LINE that are all sober that i talk to, i keep my big book and daily reflections where i can always see it in my living room. I have gotten back in to things i used to enjoy, reading, writing, etc.
What kept me going in the beginning was knowing I would definately die if I kept doing what I had been doing. I still have no idea how I didn’t. What keeps me going now is that even thinking about drinking makes me almost as anxious as I was every morning after. And knowing that if I drank I would need Xanax to survive the repercussion. Both were my addictions.
The better things that keep me going are as follows: I get to nerd out all day everyday! I read for a few hours everyday. I play the nerdiest PC games in the world. I spend time on here with all my crazy was friends. I do what I want, not what I feel I should be doing so I’m at least a functional alcoholic. My employers and employees trust me again, probably even more than ever. Work is as important to me as everything else in my life and I’ve always taken a huge amount of pride in it (even if it’s “only” running a diner). Going through the absolute hell of allergy season is WAY less shitty than doing it hungover.
Basically, at this point I cannot even imagine going back!
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the compulsion for booze has been removed by going to meetings and getting on the program , life is great without booze the guy i used to envy next door out cutting his grass laughing with his kids always polite and helpfull to his neighbours today and for along time ive been that guy and all i had to do was stop drinking and start living wish you well
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