Where there’s an entity asking you why you’ve done “it” again, and why didn’t you listen, and why do you keep doing this… And then you wake up full of fear and self doubt and trying desperately to remember and figure out what you were supposed to have remembered and what you were supposed to have stopped doing…
Well guess what Sherlock, that dream was telling you to stop poison ing yourself with booze.
It’s so simple now, so clear that it was myself begging not to do it, asking why!??
I have not had that dream since going Sober and it was an almost nightly occurrence whilst drinking!!!
I honestly don’t think I would say anything to pre sobriety me. The adventure this has taken me on and who it has made me today I am thankful for. Sure I have many flaws and character defects but who doesn’t?! I can identify mine and take action to correct them. I believe this made me a stronger more open minded person than if I could of gone back in time and convinced myself alcohol was cyanide.
Yeah, I had many positive influences tell me I needed to shape up and ppl I really looked up to, football coaches, all that and I still didn’t care and listen, I was in the midst of addiction in high school. Use to sneak alcohol into school, smoking pot, w.e just to think I was cool, first dwi when I was 16. It’s shit we go through don’t think I could of done anything different this was my path I suppose. Everything I do believe really happened for a reason.
I would have showed myself the receipt of my addiction: all the wasted money, the hurt relationships, the effects on my physical and mental health & the struggle I would have to go through to reach sobriety.
“You don’t have to drink all of it every night just because it ‘tastes good’. Obviously, there’s more to it than ‘tasting good’
You don’t mix vodka with grape juice and soy sauce when you run out of tomato juice and Worcestershire because it ‘tastes good’.
“You’re very nice the way you are; you don’t need alcohol to be a nicer, better, ‘cuter’ you.
Stop smoking or/and drinking your life or you’ll lose the incredible woman you love, and your family.
To be more convincing I would have added one punch in the face
I would say: You are loved. And get the thyroid meds NOW at once immediately, it’s not necessary that you feel like a lonley depressed doll nobody wants to play with. That’s hormone induced bullshit and can be fixed easily. You will feel like a new person within 3 months!
It’s perfectly ok to enjoy yourself with a book instead of disco.
You love water - when you’re going out, drink water. Beer doesn’t do any good for you and you’re quite an idiot when drunk, not cool. Besides: it makes you fat. Please don’t become fat as a walrus, you will regret it like a living hell.
GO TO SLEEP WHEN YOU ARE TIRED!
You need looots of sleep. You miss nothing when leaving early instead of turning off the light at a party. You even miss nothing when you stay home instead to be honest. Never did. You are grumpy and feel crappy when you stay up late. Nothing interesting ever happened after 9 pm! But a lot before 6 am
It’s ok to be shy, no need to talk a lot. When you drink alcohol you become a chatterly goose and people don’t see how sensitive you are - that will hurt and is preventable. Be kind to yourself, I love you!
I would say to me …. Don’t start ! You know your entire family on all sides are major alcoholics and have been told by those members (3 of them) who are in AA it’s a foregone conclusion you can’t handle alcohol. Don’t think “you’re not like them” or you have a special anti-alcoholism power and can moderate. Don’t start !!
Like others, I don’t think I was ready to learn and make change. I might have been able to hear this:
The attraction of drinking is as false as the lure of cigarettes was to the previous generation. You are smart, get yourself truly educated and you will make a real decision about your use.
Also… how many versions of moderation are you going to fight before you can embrace the freedom of being alcohol free?
Also… how many bullets are you going to dodge before you use your brilliant mind and do something different?
Also… you know why you self-medicate. Step up and address your issues. You promised yourself and your family that you would not allow yourself to be defined by your trauma. You know how to do the work of healing. Love yourself and do the work!
Thank you for the writing prompt. I’ve enjoyed this little pep talk and I’m happy to be at day 121!
You are acting like a disrespectful, egotistical brat. You smell like shit. Your hair is always greasy as fuck. Take a fucking shower for once, Jesus. No fucking surprise you hate yourself. And you know damn well the gaming is causing this, so get your head out of your ass. You will feel better.
