Hey!
I started drinking at age 12, really got heavy at age 16. I suffered consequences from drinking in my 20s and 30s, arrests, DUI, fights etc. In my mid 30s, I realised and admitted I had a drinking problem and “tried” quitting, but I never did.
I always say I couldn’t quit because I wouldn’t quit.
I didn’t want to quit the lifestyle (the parties, the “friends”, the ego, etc.)
By age 40, I got really, REALLY drunk at my grandpa’s funeral and made an ass of my self. I decided to give sobriety an honest try. That lasted 2 months because again, I didn’t want to quit the lifestyle.
Then, 5 months later, after quitting my job and having no money, I woke up one day and decided to be sober.
I felt that I was going no where with my life. I had no direction, no drive. I wanted to change that. I needed to change that.
So, I came here and did what people suggested. Somethings worked, somethings didn’t, but I was willing to try.
I think ultimately what made this time different was I lost the ego (or at least brought down to size). Realized that the universe doesn’t revolve around me, I am nothing special, and I don’t have to be everything to everyone, I just have to be me.
It didn’t happen overnight and it wasn’t easy. But this was that Ah Ha moment.
That lead me to be able to go through this process. Change your Relationship with Alcohol
What about you @Sobersilver, do you feel like it’s clicked yet?