I don’t want to die early because of drinking. I realize now I was living no life at all, being drunk near everyday! Alcohol is all lie and it destroys your life. Sick of being sick all the time! Sober is so much better. I feel like I’m actually living my life. I have young sober legs but I’m not going back to the alcohol lie.
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Stay stong LaVonne i will keep u in my preyers
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Stay strong sarath i will keep in my preyers
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Dawn5472 i feel u 100% stay strong i will keep u in my prayers
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Yess Pamela stay strong i will keep u in my prayers
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Vanessa8 keep ur head up i will keep u in my prayers
Thanks for your support
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I tried getting sober for my daughter. I tried getting sober for my ex. It didn’t work. I have to be the reason. Being sober for myself results in me being sober for everyone else.
Alcohol took me to a depth of depression I never even knew existed. Had I gone any further, I’d be dead. To willingly choose to go back to that hell is the single most idiotic decision I could ever make. Period! I never want to feel like that again.
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A promise to my late Father would be the major one,I like to think he helps me out when things get a bit rough, but my health would come into aswell,the healthier I am the longer ill be around for my children and grandchildren.
Although i was a functioning alcoholic I feel now im functioning to higher standard all round my life.
Also the thought of day one depresses and scares the life out of me.NO going back ! 
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Yessss i love it stay strong on ur journey
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Sweet so happy 4 u stay strong i will keep u in my prayers
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I got sober because I was done with life. The life I was living was going nowhere and it was slowly killing me and my relationship with my husband. Something had to change if I wanted to live to see my 40s… so it did. Now I’m coming up to 2 years sober in January and things may not be perfect, but have improved tenfold.
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Yessss so happy 4 u Amy , stay strong i will pray 4 u n ur journey 
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I got sober for me, for once. I always got sober for other people in the past. To please other people. And, strangely enough, I also relapsed to please other people. Just to be loved ? That I wasn’t enough somehow. And I think now of the character of the people I wanted so desperately to impress. How small they really are, how unkind, how sick. How unimpressive. What was I thinking?
Now it’s only for me. It is a very lonely road. Sometimes I could just split in half it is so painful. Then you catch yourself. Am I really alone and hurting because I ditched the old group? No. There’s the trap. That you need the approval of effed up people to be happy, get sober, enjoy your work, be in a relationship, anything good…
I gotta stop when I do that. Who is really with me? For real. Not someone who would backstab or betray. Yes, getting sober is for me. But I need people in my life for sure. Staying sober indirectly brings people in because it helps me be a better human. Champions maybe. Just good energy and influence. For regular life. For company and friendship. Maybe a partner.
I still have a few steady friends of many years, all distant. My big brother is farther away now. Most of my family is passed. I have new friends in recovery sprinkled around the States and the world.
Sometimes I still long for the familiar old crowd, no matter how bad it was. I imagine qualities these people don’t actually have. When you’re hurting, they could have eight arms to hold you but wouldn’t spare one if there was no party involved.
Just have to remember…and take off the rose coloured glasses. Patience. If I get sober for me, do the hard work, and not let anyone influence it, things fall into place and the new relationships appear and develop seemingly on their own.
Yeah, I do need people and support. But I no longer think of other people as having the power to keep me sober or get me drunk. Extremely dangerous and likely to fail. What if the husband, who I put on a damned pedestal and even got sober for….what if one day he decided to go on a drug binge and leave me? What happens to my sobriety? It can’t ever be contingent on someone else because people let us down. Just like we make mistakes.Too risky. Human condition. We’re the only ones that are 100 percent with us. Always.
Eek, this is long but thank you for letting me ramble. I had a 6 year stretch of sobriety that I threw away because I thought these strange people were important. I gave them the power to kill me. No more!
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Well said my friend i hope your ok on this journey , we are all here 4 u , feel free to pm me if ya want
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I would say I did it for me, but I was on a path to not be on this planet anymore. I had a good life at one point. Father to my daughters, good job, family life, etc… the “American Dream”
But alcohol ruined me. The normalizing of drinking ruined me. Then when I lost it all, I leaned on drugs because I didn’t care anymore. Jesus saved me this time. I’m doing it for him. He paid the ultimate sacrifice. No matter how hard I tried to leave this world, he kept me here for something. I finally surrendered completely to him. Is it a struggle yes, but I know he’s going to use me for his good and my testimony is going to do wonders. I’m starting to live again!
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Yesss i love it thank you for sharing , u n i have alot similar, i will keep u in my prayers , may the lord shine through you always , stay strong my friend
The people who helped me. I was going through a horrible time and somehow there were still people, people I barely knew before, who suddenly were ther for me and supported me through everything. They have no idea how much they mean to me
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