Yeah, I totally agree. Yet that didn’t make any sense at all to me until at least many months sober.
In the middle of it, not drinking sounded impossible. When I finally got sober, holy crap… I wasted so much mental and emotional energy trapped in the habit.
Dang brother. That’s a lot to process. It definitely seems to be a device to easily manage boredom although it ultimately turns out to be a distraction and a waste of what I would say is true potential. It’s an easy out I think. Having the discipline to make the choice to abstain is incredibly difficult once you’ve gone though addiction and it’s extremely admirable and inspirational for anyone actively struggling to reach a sober state. You can only live this current moment and consciously make decisions presently never in the future. The past will never be again and the future is only a concept . Take it easy my friend
Very well put I agree! I feel I drink (currently, as it has perpetually evolved over time) to firstly over come boredom and the every day stresses of a monotonous cycle of work and sleep. Secondly as a device to overcome social awkwardness or more lr less to remove the barriers of reluctance. I agree that these drugs just completely alter your reality and perception of what is truly happening and that I think is a subconscious effort to (in simple terms) “take a shortcut” so you temporarily feel satisfied. It isn’t a lastinv feeling and I know it’s sourced from something deeper within that we’ve not yet addressed. I applaud you for your strength and determination in this struggle. Never give up.
I like the bluntness. These are all potential factors for why we abuse substances.