Last night was no good
Everyone seemed to find the covid19 as a excuse to get over the top drunk, let alone the fact it was st patricks day
I didnt drink or smoke any weed but this morning it crossed my mind very quickly.
The thought was easily let go but i thought id talk about it before it starts to add up
my sobriety streak is only 4 days old so i guess it was a good idea to reach out.
I drank some creatine thismorning then had a cigg and i got dizzy everytime i dragged that nasty stinky stick. I hope im not ganna like, die from some odd head thing. If i drag the cigg and hold in the smoke ill get dizzy everytime. I should prob put the stinky sticks down for a while. I dont want to hurt my heart either. I have a physical next month and i need labs done before my physical. Im not afraid of a std but im kinda freaking out about a brain or heart issue. I was a heavy smoker for a long time. What the eff man, i wish i never picked up that nasty habbit.
Hmm i started rambaling about the guys getting wasted lastnight and ended with a different concern… Success, sobriety taking a roll
I wish i took care of my body more, esspecaly when i was a kid
Lastley about drinking
I dont care how drunk any alcoholic is or my alcoholic self. I could be blackout throwing up drunk. the cunning drink will always dasieve us into having yet another. Wether we ar 4 days or 365 days, i myself say the drink wants us dead
P.s. Im not drinking creatien anymore
Thanks for reading my messy rant