I’ve made connections here, both interpersonal and mind/body ones, that have helped my sobriety and maturing processes. Folks here can think, for the most part, and I appreciate this.
I want to create a personal thread where I share my yoga practices and talk about my thoughts, feelings, perceptions, etc. I need others to reflect back their own thoughts, this helps me the most. I need critical thinking, but the benevolent kind.
I use weed to calm my nervous system, but this is bullcrap because aside from consuming weed, my habits are terrible. My sleep is bad, I over do it, I’m putting pressure on myself, I’m skipping on my meds, and I’m not learning to calm my system down naturally, and so because of this, I have moments where I breakdown, mostly physically and mentally.
I really understand now “i dont have another recovery in me”. It feels like I cannot get sober. But, if there is one thing I have is that i dont give up, but this is a double edge sword. I always think i can, but then when it comes to putting sobriety in motion, i feel the absolute exhaustion of sobriety. How come?
I guess this is a journaling effort to connect and learn mind, body and soul to make sobriety happen.