You are missed #4

[Seb]

Glad to hear brother

[mxelle]

Hey. You know Phil is my brother’s name?

I’m alive, but can’t move. My body decided two weeks ago to shut down and bring muscle spasm one after the other on hip area/leg. I’d been struggling with this and it gave up. I can’t walk, although slightly better than two weeks ago, without sharp shooting pain. Taking a sh*t takes planning; estimated time, route, detours, spreadcheeks, blueprint analyses, inventory check…

I relapsed. I didn’t have strength to write until now. I’ve been in 24hrs pain cycles. I will write in a self help thread, because i’m using weed to calm down, including physically. I’ve decided to stop using because i’ve hit new low with it : smoking inside… this was always a no-no. And I’m getting headaches. Today is pretty much my first day without using a full week straight.

[RaggedTrouseredPhil]

Shit, dude. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. I whine like a teething baby whenever I’m experiencing even just mild pain. I can send you a pixelated and some positive vibes your way but that’s about all I’ve got.
Your brother has a cool name.

[mxelle]

I have low pain tolerance as well. I’ve been thinking a lot about this and my relationship to pain and addiction.

But yeah man, it fucken blows. Thanks for reaching out.

[Dazercat]

Sorry to read this Mel.
Sounds brutal.

[Cocojanie13]

So sorry you’re going through this hun, sending gentle hugs and love

[JazzyS]

So sorry love! That all sounds so very awful. I’m sorry you are dealing with such pain.

Sending super strength as you work through the pain without a weed crutch.

I do hope that you see / feel relief soon

[tailee17]

I miss me. Oh where have I gone?

[mxelle]

Up your arse and around the corner?

[tailee17]

I think I’m back thanks no longer lost.

[mxelle]

Amazing, welcome back. I need you here.

[MrMoustache]

Welcome back, I missed you. I remember you being one of the first supporter on my rocky sobriety journey.

[tailee17]

Thanks my friend…