and the others I’ve missed. Thanks for the shouts in this thread, thought it’s high time I do the polite thing and respond! I’ve been excellent, 281 days sober now so fast approaching that year mark, I’ve not been around for months as to be honest I feel a bit of a charlatan. I’ve been 281 days sober and in all honesty it’s not been that hard, to the point I’ve questioned my “addiction”. I’ve read countless threads and posts on here of people in bad ways, really bad ways I just think I wasn’t there. I know I have issues with alcohol but haven’t felt the need for the crutch of TS. It might have something to do with the fact I’m a bit of loner, you know the types, you hear on the news “he was such a quiet lad, kept himself to himself” before going on a serial killing spree. I guess as I don’t surround myself with alcohol it’s been easy to avoid, I’ve got a new job, working to become a web developer, settled into my new house and looking mean as fuck with all the gym going.
I’ve had to cancel 4 dates with people I’ve met online though due to the fact they drink, this is the downside, I was very close to going on a date last weekend, she is a big fan of gin (my very last drink before I stopped) and I convinced myself that in order to have a good date and loosen up I’ll just have the one. I’m so close to 1 year, I can’t do it, I had to cancel the date and I just lied and said I wasn’t confident enough to go on dates. Anyway I guess I’ll just never have sex again but hey it’s better than boozing! The only other time I’ve nearly lapsed is watching a film, some guy was wasted, the kind of wasted we all know too well, not just drunk like people who don’t have a problem but gone, reality has been altered. the actor who played this guy was outstanding, to the point I’d imagine he has issues himself. Anyway I found myself wanting to be that wasted just one more time, to feel the thrill of the confidence and to have that wanting of it to never end before the inevitable guilt, anger, shame and physical torture sets in, where you find yourself outside the off licence at 7am on a freezing cold Sunday. Those are the only 2 times I’ve almost been led astray!
I hope you guys are all doing well, I’m pretty sure you’ve got it nailed, I’ll have a look through some threads later and see what’s what, assuming @Englishd and @Bill_Phillips are still knocking about the place.
Anyway, peace out, keep it real, keep it sober!