Hey guys. Today is 29 days clean (no hard drugs) , and 29 days no ciggerettes…and that’s it.
I’m an alcoholic. A food addict/compulsive overeater.
A caffeine/sugar junkie
Sometimes I smoke weed.
These are all addictions of mine. Today I would have not only had my 29 days no drugs or ciggeretts but I also had 16 days sober from alcohol.
But I drank today
I went to my boyfriends last night. The boyfriend who promised me he was 30 days clean. That was the agreement for us to get a place together
We both had to be 30 days drug free.
But last night I found an empty cocaine bag in his truck. He claims it was from “two weeks ago” but who knows. Still he made me believe he was clean a month. Now were moving into our new place tmmrw and idk wtf to do. I gave up today. I resist temptation every day to drink and today I couldn’t. If drugs were available I’d have done them too.
Having my using boyfriend is keeping me connected to relapsing and now were moving in together. Idk how I can do this.
I’m frustrated and just wish I was stronger. Thankfully my boyfriend isn’t signing the lease, but idk if I’d ever even have the strength to kick him out.
A year ago tmmrw I checked myself into rehab for the first time. My first real attempt at sobriety. Here I am back on day 1 no booze, day 29 no drugs. Tho I stumble I pray to God I may finally succeed.
Please just pray for me.
@Ash we fail at times but the real sign on strength is to get up and brush yourself off and try again. When we fail we find our strength in God to press on. I will pray for you 
Trying to get sober together will prove to be tough.Try to give him the benefit of the doubt, since you know exactly what it’s like to be in his shoes.
However, you seem like you are ready to quit. Just from my own opinion, try to take your own journey. What I mean is, relationships require supporting the other person to be the best person they can be…so support him, but when he fails, that does not mean you have to.
I wish you luck with this because I can tell you truly care about him. Love yourself and be strong, maybe seeing you strong will help him as well.
I’ll keep you in my prayers
@Ash I’ll be praying for you sister! Trust God that he will give you his strength! He has a plan for your life and this is just part of the journey! Hang in there, stay strong! Blessings! 
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