Oh normal time! Okay 
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I will join xxx
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I’ll join but probably will just listen, because this will be my first meeting.
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so sorry to hear that olivia. especially since i was also struggling myself for days and not so brave to reach out. Will there be a meeting tonight aswell?
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Cool 
maybe I’ll have time to hop on. Still working. Happy new year 
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Yay! I’m gonna shower and hop on…my camera is crap on my phone but I’ll try to be visible
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thanks I’d appreciate that!
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Any more going on later? I have a dr appt to get to
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Awesome thanks hopefully once I get settled I can pop my head in
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I’ll try to get on later. Want to sit with Dad as long as he’s up. For a retired guy he’s really pushing it late, LOL.
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i saw it to late. i already caved. this days were to tough for me to do alone (no excsue i know)) I was holding on for weeks, and almost 24/7 here , for this day and did not make it.
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They have me eating hahahaha can’t go back yet…
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I’m with my suitcase ready lol
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I took a conscious deep dive in the pain of the past things that happened over new years. the time is there to talk about it and try and set it free. A relative called and took the opportunity to talk about it. I want to get out of this feeling of being worthless cause it is eating me alive. Hope it saved my ass and surely the emotions now will come backfiring but I want to feel worthy of live and myself again. this abuse has kept me hostage for to long. I do no know how but I will keep reaching out.
I hope you had a good new years eve!
I wish all of you TS friends the best for the year to come. You are all so valuable to me 
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SPot on!! thank you for reminding me. The head knows where it comes from but somehow I can not enter the feelings or emotions that are trapped. and probably I should just like arjuna when krisna tells him to not want to understand everything, take the path of action
I am so fed up with treating myself like shit at times. since I moved here it has been a shitstorm so I know it has to do with not wanting to deal with my past. There is no way around this time. I have to work through it. My solutions so far have proven to kill me in the end.
@SoberGuyUSA. thank you for the kind words. I am that person (most of time;) I need to also be that to myself, I am getting to old for this stuff and merry go round of beating myself up.
@Jennajen. sending me this is all you can do now I guess. reading the replies made me feel accepted. you learn me so much. I want to learn to trust again. I can, trust comes from the inside right?
Feels like I am almost there guys. on the edge of this big pain, ready to proces it and more desire then ever to live again. but scared and maybe waiting for something to push me over the edge.
2 things I know for sure
- drinking wont help
- and whatever it is, it already happened and I survived.
Now I will stop bashing the zoom treath.
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