I’m Holly. I have a wonderful loving husband and a 21 year old daughter in college. I am a medical professional. I binge drink. 1 or 2 25% of the time and 12 to 15 the other 75%. I have used alcohol since late teens to cope with social anxiety. Life of the party sometimes and nightmare others. I have also suffered from depression my whole life. For the last few years, I’ve been drinking alone more to get out of my head. I will turn 50 in July. I can count on my hands how many times I have socialized without alcohol. I can go weeks without drinking so I have always struggled with the idea of being an alcoholic. What I know for sure is that alcohol makes my depression far worse. I want to stop and I want to learn how to live happily without alcohol.