My name is Eileen E, I’m mid 60s, and I’m an alcoholic for the past - 10 years, maybe 15 years, hard to say when it started. Didnt drink much all my life, I hated feeling tipsy!!! Just goes to show, anyone can become an addict if they try hard enough!
Having educated myself to drink 2 bottles wine/day, I was/am putting a huge strain on my marriage, treating my husband really badly, besides not doing important pieces of work and letting people down. Not a day goes by - went by - without my drinking. I have tried lots of different things, AA once before, private counselling twice and acamprosate, medication to reduce cravings. I have prayed and prayed and prayed for years, and folk are praying for me too.
For some reason which I cant understand, since last Saturday 27th April, the strong craving for alochol has reduced. It was so dramatic that Im recording it as the start of my sobriety because truly I have been sober since that day, even if not alcohol free. Ive had one glass wine/day. It’s so great to wake up sober without guilt from whatever I said or did the previous evening. But I want to stop all together. Maybe today will be the first alcohol free day. The craving still surges from time to time and its almost unbearable at times. I went back to AA on 30th April and was given the link to this online chat group. Im hoping that when the urge to drink gets tough, I can log on here and send a message. I suspect that in itself will help me, I dont expect anyone to drop what they’re doing and respond. Although I think that’s evidence of my warped thinking, I dont want to burden people AND I want to manage things myself.

Anyway that’s me. Hello Everyone Out There.