They say “You cannot win when You did not start to fight”. I was the fighter but I was fighting for other people. Always with all my strength but I did not care about me. Then, when my own demons came I did not have enough strengh to fight. First I did not ask for help but when I lose with depression and alcohol my wife said to me that I need professional help. When I finished the therapy I felt like butterfly and was thinking that I won the war but when I fell I know that I won only a battle. This war will never end…