I’m 41 years old, and when I reached 40 I stopped believing my own excuses as to why I needed / deserved to drink every night. I asked myself “if not now, when?” I’ve battled bulimia for over 25 years and my trigger is drinking alcohol. I’m happily married with two children aged 7 and 9, and I want to be happy, healthy and HERE for them! My mother abused alcohol her whole life and at 78 is still in denial. It stole her health and now she’s not strong enough to enjoy her ‘relaxing’ years (she can still left a glass though ). Ive had lots of nasty complex issues related to my childhood and parents to work through but I’m hardly unique in that - and my decision to drink too much was mine alone. It’s no one else’s fault and it’s my responsibility to live the best life I can. When I don’t drink I’m happier, healthier, I sleep better, I’m less snappy, calmer, I eat properly and exercise - in fact EVERYTHING in my life is better. I’m better. But the lure to drink is still there, and so I’m asking you people out there whom I’ve never met, but who might just understand, please help me to succeed this time !!!