I’m struggling with suicidal depression. I used to binge drink to either distract myself from the bad shit in my life or get the courage to hurt myself. I’ve been couch surfing for a year, almost homeless many times. Getting over the loss of two breakups… left someone I was with a long time for a person who ended up being physically and emotionally abusive. I still have feelings for him which shows how fucked up I am. I lost everything over this relationship and now I’m barely scraping by.
Got 6 months sober once but dealt with a lot of grief and self blame for a long time after losing people from overdoses that i began drinking to cover up again.
I’m a lot better at giving advice than taking it but I do appreciate help.