Sober Curious. Often I’m fine and I’ll drink once a week. But on those once a week nights, I can be a blackout drinker, consequences include ambulances, waking up in towels in foreign tents, cuts, bruises, assaults, blackout sex, drunk texting exes, and all sorts of humiliation and stomach illness. I like to keep healthy and then all of a sudden it is as if I earn the blackout that I never set out to have. I dont want to be sober but I want to choose a life where I know I can get home safe and a life where I can be a better friend, partner, daughter, sister, and compassionate person to myself. Looking for helpful tips, because my god, I loved how drinking made me feel until loathed how much the blackouts made me feel.