Sober Curious. I drink only about once a week/fortnight but I mostly do it to blackout. Blackout drinker (often on an empty stomach), consequences include ambulances, waking up in towels in foreign tents, cuts, bruises, assaults, blackout sex, drunk texting all sorts, and all sorts of humiliation and stomach illness. Highly functioning and passionate about health - running marathons and practicing yoga - and yet I excuse myself when it comes to drinking. Healthy five days a week then its like I earn the blackout that I never set out to have. I want to choose a life where I know I can get home safe and a life where I can be a better friend, partner, daughter, sister, and compassionate person to myself. Looking for helpful tips, because my god, I loved how drinking made me feel until loathed how much the blackouts made me feel.