Thankful, grateful & blessed to be Sober ODAAT! No more living in the depths of HE@@!!! Living happy, joyous and free is the only way I want to LIVE my life. To have a clear mind and make positive decisions is a blessing!! I continue to work on myself every single day & remind myself where I can be in the blink of an eye! I also stay connected to my sober friends and friends in the program daily. Always help others to stay out of my own way & keep my side of the street clean. To live my life with honesty & respect for others is beyond anything that I could possibly imagine. The day that I got rid of the wreckage of my past was a complete blessing to this day & almost 7 years sober I don’t even think about any of it at all. Complete mind & life change just unbelievable. I had a choice to continue to live as an alcoholic or get my SH@@ together and go to AA meetings, have random drug and alcohol tests, 1 year of therapy 4x a month, and had to live away from my home and my son for 3 months starting the day I got out of a 36 hour hold for attempting suicide by hanging myself in my garage but was found by my 10 year old son at the time and he called 911 they came right away and all that was ordered by a judge as soon as I walked out the door without seeing my son and was not able to for 2 weeks and once I did it had to be supervised for 1 hour 1 time a week. Out of the 12 times that I attempted I ended up on in the mental hospital for at least 3-14 days. Also in 2016 I took 120 1 mg Xanax with a tall mikes hard lemonade and my friend that I was on the phone with called 911 & had he not … well I would be dead. Ended up in the ICU and it took 4 Doctors and 9 nurses to bring me back to life. I flatlined and was gone for 5 minutes then I came back to life. I know that God was there looking over me. I knew from that moment that I had to get sober to be a better me and be a mom that would be present for my son. The most beautiful decision I have ever made in my life. 100% blessed to be SOBER!!! God is good.