HI my name is Marilyn Chastain and i am an addict/alcoholic. I say alcoholic mostly because i participate in an Alcoholics Anonymous program, but alcohol wasnt my drug of “choice”, that doesnt mean i didnt ever have a drinking problem, i just preferred opiates and uppers. In particular, my drugs of choice were Heroin, Fentanyl and Meth. I liked benzos and adderall or stimulants but the main 3 were the ones above. Yes i was a needle junkie and i feel that itself deserves mentioning because there is an addiction to the needle itself, imo. My sobriety date is December 11, 2022. I live in an Oxford House, which is a sober living house and ive been at my house since December 2 2022. When i first got out of rehab, after about a week, i had a slip with meth, went back to detox for a few days and my sobriety date is the 11th. Had i not had that unfortunate slip i would be over a year sober but had i not had that slip i would possibly still think that i just need One more… and i found out that wasnt true. Everything happens on Gods time and for a reason. I dont question him and his motives or whatever, God that is, because my life is substantially the best it has ever been and i can only attribute that to God, letting him take the reign over my life. Its not easy, but it gets easier over time to allow God to handle things. Prayer is so important! Stay consistently connected to a higher power, and things just magically fit into place like youve never seen before. When i say magical, i absolutely mean it is so magical and mindblowing to sit back and watch God work in your life. He can do Anything! So, as i said my life has improved beyond my wildest imagination, i have a newborn baby, Kai Grayson Haning, and he has two sisters and two brothers which my dad still has temporary custody of (Arabella, Presley, Gavin and Aiden). I will get them back one day, hopefully soon but again thats up to God and his timing.
So i think that covers just about everything. My Goal is to do something within Oxford House, or in some Recovery related business/organization. I dont want to work in the food service/restaurant industry forever but it definitely helps to assist in paying bills etc. I will always be grateful that if i need a second job once i get my dream job, i can do work at a restaurant anywhere. I feel like i am becoming more well rounded. Thats a great feeling. I am just overwhelmed with joy to help others and to give back i honestly cannot wait to be of servicw to another suffering addict or alcoholic. I want to see the light come back inside someone. Watching people grow in confidence and health is just a beautiful thing to see. Theres nowhere else in the world i would rather be in my life! Thank you so much to the program Alcoholics Anonymous! Saving my life