Long time drug abuser. Smoked a lot of weed as a teenager and moved up from there. Addiction really created a lot of problems in my life and I am tired of letting myself and my people down. Ive wanted recovery and worked towards it for many years. If I don’t go all in for myself and my family I fear that I never will and it can’t end that way. There are a lot of people rooting for me and a good few that have given up hope - but I will be a testament to those who have lost hope for themselves and their future - one day at time.

3 years ago after realizing my longest run of sobriety I had achieved since age 15 I relapsed hard. I lost my sponsor and then went through 3 more in a span of a few months. One told me I wasn’t ready. Well it was discouraging to go through that, and I did pretty much give up on working a program at that point. Now I’m back and I’m hoping to do it right. Need to organize what times and meeting locations I will be devoted do and looking for for the one who can get me through the steps. Never got through the notorious 4th step , this time feels different