Hello, this is around the 20th time that I’ve installed this app in the last few years but I’m hoping to make it stick this time.
I’m 33 in two months and I’ve been drinking most days since I was a teenager. On average I was drinking a bottle of wine or four pints of beer a night.
3 days sober at a time is the longest I’ve achieved previously, 3 days sober then 20 days drinking every day and repeat.
I have BPD and really struggle with controlling my impulsiveness.
However, I have one kidney and over the last few years, every time I have the annual function test, it’s decreased in function.
I really don’t want to die, I just want to stop poisoning myself and get better. It’s difficult because I’ve never been a sober adult and so I have no positive memories of being sober to focus on.
I hope it will be different with more of a support network on here.
Nice to meet everyone x