Sober Date 6 - 21- 16

What can i say about me?
Let's see, I'm 43 years old, I've been through hell and back. I've been addicted to or dabbled in just about everything known to man..and woman. Not that I'm proud of that it's just my experience.
I grew up watching my mom go through her disease of alcoholism and saw first hand the destruction of what it can do, thankfully she finally put the bottle down when i was around 15.
When i was 18 my older brother shot and killed his girlfriend then turned the gun on himself. Some say he was high on drugs, toxicology said different. Whatever the case may have been it damaged me more then i could ever know at the time. When i was 25 i was involved in a major roll over accident that left me in a coma for a week with massive traumatic brain injury, i wasn't supposed to survive but for some reason i did...three weeks after i woke up from my coma my little brother was killed in a motorcycle accident. My life would forever change.
After i lost my little brother, my best friend...i fell into a state of depression unlike anything id ever experienced. A steady downward spiral into a drug and alcohol fueled turmoil and there i spent the next 20 years. I've bounced back and forth with sobriety, even made it four long years without alcohol only to trick myself into thinking i could do it again...i was mistaken and here i am trying it again!