Hi, my name is Suzanne and I’m a 26 year old car detailer from the Netherlands. I grew up abroad in Africa, Asia, Latin America and Europe because my dad works for the embassy. My life was enriched by growing up in so many different cultures but it also had the downside of a lack in stability. The fact that we never really lived in safe countries didnt help either as I experienced various traumas growing up.
Besides my addiction problems I also deal with a few personality disorders and PTSD for which I’m thankfully being treated. My addiction is a symptom of these other problems. I was/am also a recovering drug addict but I’ve been clean for 7 years now. Alcohol seems to be a harder habit to shed. I’ve tried multiple times but the longest I lasted was about 4 months and that’s just because I made myself so sick through anorexia that I could barely eat let alone sneak around buying and drinking alcohol. This time I’m making a voluntary decision to quit alcohol and that’s proven to be much more difficult. I have the help of my psychologist, partner, and my two cats (who’s idea of helping is really just incessant meowing and climbing on me but it makes me smile so it counts)
This is the first time I’ve reached out to a community like this and so far I’ve seen only amazing acts of courage and kindness. I’m happy to be here with all of you, let’s kick this thing to the curb!