Hi there! I drank, smoked and binged food since I was 15. I got married 10 years ago and started drinking at home with my husband after work every night. I never drank or smoked in front of my kids, who are 4 and 6, so there was a lot of shame and piling it on at night after their bedtime, showering before they woke up. 2 years ago, I started having panic attacks and began shutting myself in our bedroom every night with a bottle of wine. I couldn’t stop for more than 3 days. I quit nicotine slowly by vaping, which I hated so it dropped off into nothing. But I was stepping up the drinking to compensate. My last drink was the day I drank a bottle of wine in an hour at 3pm, on a day the kids were with their Grandparents, so that I could sober up in time for a parent meeting at 7pm. I had never done anything like that before. I don’t want that for my kids. I don’t want them to see it and I don’t want them to do it. So here I am. I am so happy to have finally made the decision. I’m still struggling with food, but at least I have got a clear mind for the work I need to do to get mentally sober.