Hi I’m here because I’m an addict/alcoholic. I’ve been free of alcohol since Feb. 6/17. But unfortunately I have replaced drinking all the time with doing coke all the time. I’m a closet addict so nobody knows just my dealers. So I’m scared to get help. So ashamed. I hate coke and I hate even more that a part of me loves it. Yet it’s destroying me. I need to be free. I feel like I’m sinking in quick sand trying to grasp for anything to save me. I feel I’m locked inside a cage in my own head. I want out!!