Self medicating high functioning alcoholic who completely lost control. Put myself in in-patient treatment and freed myself…at least for now. I began drinking in High School shortly after I had an open heart surgery when I was 15 to fix a birth defect. Sports was my outlet to socialize. I was shy in the classroom and around people in general. When that was taken away I found alcohol and its power to me was magical. Little did I know in time it could completely consume me and rule my life. Anyways now in my mid thirties I have had to learn to talk and defeat a social disorder that was covered up by drunkin stuper. I still battle anxiety and depression but am thankful not to be battling withdrawals, fainting spells and blackouts. Now I just work my ass off and watch drinking from the side lines to remind myself why I don’t do that anymore! Currently 28 months sober making more money than I ever have with a ton of responsibility…who would have thought!