Hi @Fresh_start and welcome to the forum. Congrats on taking the first big step.
Thanks for sharing your difficult story. Start with all the support you can get - this App/forum (talkingsober.com), AA (again) or other meetings, an outpatient/inpatient program, reading and videos. There is so much out there! But it has to come from within you - it will not be easy, but it’s worth it!
Here is a useful thread on getting through early recovery:
(Surviving Alcohol Withdrawal/Early Sobriety Techniques)
And recovery-related links that members have posted: