Im addicted to living a normal life but marijuana is the catalyst allowing me to do so. I feel like the marijuana is living and there is nothing left of me. I feel like the world doesnt need me because i am useless without a drug to make me function.
Have u ever tried to quit it before? Hate you’re feeling hopeless. I think @ByeCannabis probably has insights to share. I’ll try to link up some threads 4 you.
Yes ive tried. I was hospitilized for a week the last attempt for irradic behavior and suicide watch. I want to try again but i am scared
Hang in there.
Dont stop seeking help, things change, you change.
And if anybody thinks weed isn’t addictive they are wrong
Deep breaths
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I’m no doctor, but if u experience clinical mental health issues like anxiety, depression, etc., then i could see where stopping your “medicine” might’ve landed u in the hospital before.
What’s your fear, or do u even know? Sometimes when I have anxiety I’m not able to identify the trigger. It sucks!
It’s definitely possible for u to stop smoking.
Im scared without the drug ill go back to laying in a dark room afraid to go outside. Afraid to speak with people. Im afraid without the drug i am not a real person.
I understand exactly where you are coming from. I have severe anxiety and panic attacks. Been points where I couldn’t leave the house at all. Fear of leaving and fear of everything. Have you seemed any medical or therapy for this? I know it is paralyzing and is terrifying. There are some vitamins and over counter things, that may help. If you didn’t want to be taking any medications for it. I am always looking for new & alternative ways to help. I have done the weed thing for anxiety in the past. You can definitely overcome this. I have good and bad days as far as leaving. But, it can be managed.
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Anxiety about anxiety is like being in a hamster wheel for me. Let today be your day 1. You’re still a real person without the drug. Test it out.
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It is comforting to know im not alone and someone understands that im not imagining this. I have been in and out of therapy since i was 12 years old. I stopped when it became about what drug we can try next. I want to stop ALL the drugs.
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Well I too wanted to stop my psychotropic meds. Was off them, after medically tapering, for several weeks. I wanted to know my baserline. Guess what? I need medication. For me, there’s no shame in it. I’m back on a very conservative regimen. I go to therapy. I actively do self care stuff. I need the meds, just like a cardiac patient needs meds… and no, that’s not an excuse/justification for taking them. My brain chemistry is out of whack to point of interfering with my life, if I’m not treated with meds. No shame here about it. None.
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You have accomplished much, kicking the “hard drugs”, and I can see the desire to be totally free from all mind-altering substances, and how it can be a huge psychological challenge.
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Hey ( @SweetTea thanks for tag) . The first thing I have to say is that there is absolutely nothing wrong with being on psychiatric medication. Without my antidepressant I am a different person. I tried many over the course of 10 years and it was frustrating until I found the right one. It changed me significantly for the better. So although you hate the idea of ‘finding the right one’ - unfortunately that is the reality for many. I have seen psychiatric medication literally save people’s lives. I am qualified in this area so if you want to message me more about specific medications I can give you detailed advice (and some personal experience but bare in mind it is different for everyone).
Marajuana is a temporary fix for some temporary feelings but it makes you worse in the long run. This is why I decided to quit and I am so glad that you have too. Yes, anxiety can be managed in other ways, exercise, breathing, distraction, occupation etc. But it can also be really helped by some medication (preferably an antidepressant rather than something short term like a benzo, which CAN sometimes be associated with addiction issues).
Youll get through this. You’ve already taken the hardest step by being here. 
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I completely understand. I am in the same boat I’ve been an addict for over 11 years and suffer from PTSD and anxiety and depression. I used herion for years then switched over to alcohol and I have always weed. I’ve been sober from everything except weed for 106 days. I can’t seem to give it up. It really does help my anxiety. I would love to give up and have a complete sober life. It’s not easy that’s for sure but what helps me is this group it’s great to talk to people that are going threw the same thing because my friends and family try to help but they just don’t understand. Also I do have a therapist that I see once a week who helps me cope with my anxiety that got me started smoking and using drugs in the first place. Distraction is the best thing for me when I get a craving. I binge on Netflix or read a book and now I like doing puzzles lol which I never used to enjoy but it keeps my mind focused on one thing and takes my mind off of using. A lot of people like going to the gym it’s a great healthy way to let out some steam. Just take it day by day that’s all you can do and like I said it definitely helps coming on here just letting your feelings out and sharing your story because it helps so many people that are going threw the same thing!
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Oh my word.
Stay Strong!
I hate that people are treating you like that.
Weed use before the age of 17 years old increase your rick of killing yourself because of anxiety/depression that normally comes from long time uses.
I am glad you came here for help, weed was never really my thing, I help someone here can help you more then I can.
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You are not alone in this feeling, I am sure a lot of us felt this way before, I know I have.
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I don’t like you said “for the last time”. I mean, it would be GREAT if this was the last time and that you got this done and done right this time…however, I fear like you are saying “if it doesn’t work out this time it will never work out so I’ll just give up”. I say NEVER give up. NEVER “for the last time”. REACH OUT EVERY TIME YOU NEED TO.
Ok? You hear me? Always reach out to us.
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Have you tried an outpatient treatment program? I am currently in one and it has changed my life. Another good option would be AA, or any other narcotics anonymous, cocaine anonymous, marijuana anonymous… These programs and groups DO exist.
I was in the exact same place as you many years ago. Unfortunately, CBD didnt really exist then. CBD is derived from the hemp plant. There is NO THC. IT WILL NOT GET U HIGH. BUT, it has so much medicinal benefits. Mainly including anxiety! Thats what i use it for. Look it up online. Its only helpful in so many ways. You can take orally, vape it, eat it, dab it, smoke it or by pill. Its not addictive, you cannot overdose, there is literally nothing negative about it. I works wonders on my anxiety. Definitely something you should look into. I cannot stress this enough. CBD is an amazing product! 
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@Ldtush, I’ve been considering trying that too. My alcohol addiction stems from my often crippling anxiety. Most prescription medications have only helped a little bit… I dealt with my anxiety by being bulimic for about 10 years. It’s been more than 11 years since I quit that behavior, but a few years into quitting that, I feel like I sort of replaced it with alcohol.
And my anxiety makes it hard for me to get myself over to the club to buy CBD. Sigh