Welcome @Boogs106 @Sam-thebeachguy @Alishpeach!
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Iām Ju. Thatās not my real name but that doesnāt matter. Iām 20 years old, and I have struggled with substance problems since 15. For the past 5 years I have tried about 20 different drugs, including but not limited to lsd, weed, opiates, benzodiazepines, 25i-nbome, doc, etc. etc. It starts out cool, you think youāre in control (āI wonāt end up like in the movies or those freaks you see on the streetā), then shit starts to snowball and before you know it youāve got a bigger problem than you know how to deal with. Depression, anxiety, depersonalization, suicidal thoughts, borderline psychotic episodes, obsessions, racing thoughts, the list goes. Iām scared. Iāve struggled with mental issues since I was only a child, which leads me to believe all this monkey business is a form of self medicating. Whatever, Iām stoned, drunk and zombied on the benz. Sobriety starts tomorrow, wish me luck.
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Hi @Ju_Hao and welcome to the forum. 
Congrats on taking the first big step.
Here is a useful thread on getting through early recovery:
(Surviving Alcohol Withdrawal/Early Sobriety Techniques)
And recovery-related links that members have posted:
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Hi all
Iām sarah Iām a drink and drug addict Iām not long out of treatment Iām new to this so donāt what to say much more for now
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Hi, Iām Denise Iām 26 with two small children. Iām married, been so for going on two years. I had my first drink at age 13, didnāt drink again for about 4 years. I started dating an older guy and had access to alcohol whenever I wanted. I have drank almost every day since, I think when I first left that relationship I went for about 3 months without drinking but thatās the longest Iāve gone. My decision to quit 7 days ago came after a huge argument between myself and my husbandās sister. We were all pretty drunk so things escalated rather quickly. Things got ugly hurtful things were said and I realized that I was tired. At 26 Iāve been through so much unnecessary crap due to my drinking. Iām very new to this but I am ready, this is a great app Iām loving what Iām seeing and I appreciate the support that Iāve already been given.
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Hi again @Denise27 and welcome to the forum. Congrats on taking the first big step and 7 days.
The good news is that you are young and if you stop now, have a whole life ahead of you. 
Unlike some of us who wasted decades in a destructive cycle.
Here are recovery-related links that members have posted:
(Different Aspects of Recovery)
Note that this forum is also available outside the āAppā from any browser at talkingsober.com
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Thank you I look forward to continuing this journey. This forum has been very helpful in letting me know that Iām not alone.
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Wow! Thank you. What an eye opener. I teared up reading this because it sounded so much like me.
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Mounirā¦ 22
Porn addict for 11 years.
Not yet recoveredā¦
But My goal is to finish 2017 without it!!!
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@Ju_Hao, Welcome I hope today was good and you have succeeded on your goal for today. If you need anything IM me. Remember your higher power and always be thankful for the blessings that have been bestowed on you and the things that you have accomplished. So your higher power grant you another day of Great accomplishments. Another thing you will find if you keep your hands busy and your mind will follow. The mind is the devilās workshop so we have to keep her hands busy so the devil cannot play. Good luck and I will be praying for you. 
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Hi Iām Jamie 25 I was addicted to Xanax for about 3 or 4 years everydayā¦ I just recently relapsed on cocaine and lost the love of my life but I can come back and willā¦
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Hi Iām Chris
When I seperated from my wife 11yrs, alcohol became my new relationship, but I didnāt know at the time, or didnāt want to know.
When I finally admitted that I did have a problem, things began to get worse.
After 3yrs of relapses, I know now itās part of the road to recovery.
So Iām here, after relapse numberā¦, I have no clue, determined to get sober, to accept myself, instead of pushing away the hurt and pain to meet it with kindness.
Anyways thatās me for now.
Thankyou all. Have a great day.
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Hi everyone. Im Will. I am 33. I am addicted to opiods. I have 3 beautiful children and a nice house. A great job and a decent truck. I am blessed. Yet through all that I still fight with depression and feelings of inadequacy and hopelessness. Im going thru a lengthy divorce. Luckily I have my kidsā¦they are the reason Im alive and the reason Im hereā¦trying to stay sober. I started dabbling with percocet over 10 yrs ago. Before that all I had done was drink. But looking back i have always had addictionsā¦just not always unhealthy ones. Highschool football, weightlifting, bodybuildingā¦stuff like that. When I was that age I looked down on addictsā¦considered them weak and stupidā¦nowā¦here I amā¦2 months behind on the mortgageā¦all because I said ā¦heckā¦why not? Over 10 years ago. My use really increased to a very problematic stage about 6 yrs ago. I kept it at bay for a long timeā¦my good paying job allowed me to keep up with my habitā¦15$-20$ a day was doable. Then as the law cracked down and demand went up so did the price. Now it was 40$ a day. Thats getting tightā¦As time progressedā¦so did my habitā¦eventually I began dabbling in heroin but it wasnt my preferred drug. Thank God I never shot up. Oxy is my kryptonite. Last years holidays were particularly rough on me. My exes problems and demands for money forced me to cash out my 401k to help her keep the lights on and to let her buy the kids Christmas. So I gave her her half and used a bunch of mine to feed my addiction. Then I developed a 100$ a day problem. In February I was at the end of my rope and I begged my parents for help. They already knew I had a problem but couldnāt prove it or know how to approach it. It was very difficult because ive always been responsible and self reliant. Luckily they were gracious and helped me out. I stayed clean a whopping 10 days before I started back a little at a time and before long was back to 100$. Now here I amā¦I took my last pill Sunday morning. Its Thursday now. I got a suboxen strip to help the withdrawal(I dont recommendā¦just really delaying the imminent withdrawal till the long holliday weekend. I took 4mg sun. 3 mon 2 tues and less than 1mg yesterday. Its long half life should keep me semi-normal till tomorrow. Then the hurting begins. I say bring it. Ive beat the physical pain before. The sickness I can handle. Its days 8-10 that I get stressed that always make me falter. I āneedā just ā1ā. Then you know where that leads. This time Im doing it different. This time I have yall. You all understand. You have been here. Im also going to start na. I need physical contact and accountability. Thats about it. Any questions comments or snide remarksā¦Lolā¦will be appreciated. I cant beat thisā¦but we can.
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Have u ever tried Kratom? It helps more than suboxone, all natural too! Just trying to help 
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Im stefan,
6 days sober and going strong! My addiction to alcohol controlled the last 10 years of my life. Starting with weekend long benders, spiralling into dependence. stress, depression and anxiety would set in if i didnt know where i was going to get my next drink. Ruining relationships and leaving me with massive debt, i didnt care, i either wanted to get loaded or die.
but now i realise there is hope!
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Yes. I have. It works pretty well. But Iām just trying to be done. Period. I know me. And I know if I take enough kratom I will get a mild euphoric feeling. And then ill take more and more. By months end ill be buying 150$ a week in kratom. This is day 3 of no subs day 6 of no pills. I feel great. I know I still have many rough days ahead of me but Iām just going to rejoice in this moment today with my wonderful kids.
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Awesome congrats! Iāll be praying for u!
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Hi Will nice to meet youā¦ I love your last sentence :), so true! Welcome to our community 
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I have no idea if this image uploaded or not. Either way Hello! regulars and bleh! newcomers. Nothing kills a good AA topic like a newcomerās meeting amiright? Yay I got an app! and now I can bitch online anonymously. I havenāt posted so much as a comment on a Youtube video in probably 5yrs or moreā¦ much less a Forum soā¦ be Amazed! Introduce myself okā¦ Chris here, Jesus to an exclusive bunch of company Iāve spent a modicum of time with for my ever-evolving resemblance to the Man whom turns water into the very vine of life. 32yoā¦ Registered card carrying alkie for 10+yrs. Fights, hospitals, job losses, homelessness, drunk tanks, etcā¦ my war stories will just make you blush. Just out of a 15yr relationship/marriage, lost everything, sleeping on a friendās couchā¦ Hello Ladies. And fresh off a good-sized, forced, bout of sobriety. Despite all this and my college credits toward my substance abuse counseling degreeā¦ *sigh, jk, if only mistakes paid instead of the other way aroundā¦ I went right back to drinking, like it was a good buddy and not some devil that fucked my wife and took my life away from meā¦ thatās Friendship. 3 weeks back at it, itās all a miserable haze, I swear to God my insides are in utter revolt. Iām less sick drunk though. Any sober time has been spent trying to work, dry/wet heaving, worrying, chain smoking, barely sleeping, having panic attacksā¦ WTF! is a panic attack? I didnāt even know what they were and now all of a sudden Iām Tony fucking Soprano. Iām destroyed. Iām lovesick, pining for this old life with another alcoholic I was miserable with. Iāve got this blank canvas in front of me and all I wanna do is throw shit at it. Iām resigned to losing all my hopes, dreams, potential. My HP and I are at an impasse. Iāve got a grudge against AAā¦alcoholics are the absolute worst people. Oh, Iāll 5th step all day longā¦ my shit has long since stopped embarrassing meā¦ never done me a lick of good. Iāve been doing this So very longā¦ Iāve heard every bit of advice and I can preach it with swagger. Iām jaded, Im bitter, heartbroken, listening to Willie Nelson with a bottle of gin. And for the record, if youāre reading, I have no interest in my story futhering your causeā¦ letās go down together. But fuck it, Iāve gotta rant somewhere cause to do this in public would mean immediate expulsion from the bar. Iāve lurked for a few hours and admittedly itās a nice communityā¦ not as yet completely ruined with infighting and dictumā¦ Enjoy. Iāve got this diseaseā¦ allergy, ass rash, what have youā¦ where this beautiful fucking world is never enough. Iām sick and I donāt know if I can make it through another detox. Iām alone. I donāt know what I have to offer humanity anymore, but I know Iām dying and it sucks cause it feels like my agent screwed me out of a bigger part. Soā¦ rant complete I guessā¦ talk amongst yourselves.
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