Welcome 
if you feel like it’s being an issue then that’s the best time to cut it out…I never really realised or thought about it until I had abused alcohol so much I couldn’t drink without getting blackout drunk
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Reminds me of Moderation Management.
When they started in 1994, I laughed. But they’ve managed to stick around. To each his own.
Nevertheless, you are most definitely welcome here @Jessica. Look forward to seeing more of you. 
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Welcome @Jessica . I’m also a Jessica, and I think we have very similar drinking habits. I too have wondered if I could moderate my drinking, and keeping it just to weekends, but failed time and time again, waking up to go to work with a terrible hangover after drinking a bottle or plus of wine. I still struggle with trying to moderate my drinking or never drinking again. For now, I’m not going to drink and take it one day at a time. I don’t want to go back to the cycle I was in. Good luck to you on your journey!
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Wow thanks everyone I already feel so welcome.
I wonder how I can achieve the same kind of “high” being sober doing the things I’ve mentioned.
All I know is that hangovers are really outweighing things and I really want to not waste my life with them anymore, for a while I would plan my life around a crappy hangover. Ugh
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Welcome @Jessica! Your story has a lot in common with mine. I would plan on having 1 drink, due to diet, working the next day, etc. And after that 1, I didn’t care anymore. All plans went out the window once I had that first drink. It was party time and I drank like tomorrow was never coming.
I hope you stick around because being sober can be very rewarding!
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Hi @Jessica and welcome to the forum. 
Congrats on taking the first big step to reflect on this.
Many of us here, if not all!, have tried moderation and it turned out to not be an option. Maybe it worked for a few days or weeks, but would lead to heavy drinking/use and everything bad again. That does not mean it can’t work for you, but my personal view is if someone makes a serious attempt at moderation, and it fails after a few tries, then sobriety is the logical choice.
These recovery-related links that members have posted might help you decide:
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Hi and welcome @Jessica 
Gosh, reading your drinking habits is just like you had written down mine!
I too recognized it was an issue after way too many wooly heads in the morning and seeing the the empty bottles of wine on the counter.
I chose to go sober as moderation wasn’t working for me.
Good luck & hope to see you around the forum
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Love that quote! Really resonates with me. That’s one I’ll be saving for when I’m having a bad day. Thank you 
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Thank you so much. I am on day two and it being the weekend I am going to see how I handle not drinking. Weekends were a huge trigger and if I can’t go this weekend without alcohol on my mind I think I might need to change my approach altogether.
So far I feel ok today I was able to go for a run which I haven’t done in two years.
I am having a lot of trouble sleeping, is this a common symptom?
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Anxiety, sleep disturbance, aches and pains, sweating, nausea, moodiness, itching, sugar cravings… are all normal parts of recovering from poison.
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I can relate to you 100% Jessica. We think we are gonna be able to have self control about drinking, but we always fail
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I can relate! I’m new here too! I would say I’ll only drink two and then end up not remembering the rest of the night. I would wake up feeling awful and sick. That’s why I wanted to change and get sober and healthy. Welcome Jessica!
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Sleep was the most difficult part for me. I was sober for 21 days before I could actually lay down and just fall a sleep.
I have 104 days today. I’m not new to recovery (I had 6 years and relapsed)
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Oh wow, nonetheless 104 days is something to be proud of. I related to your story, especially in regards to wanting to healthy and take care of yourself then drink/use and having too start all over -like a never ending cycle. I do the same thing. I commit to being healthy, then at the 2-3 week mark I can’t take it ant longer and i will drink. But my BIG problem is that when i drinl I want to do cocaine. It’s like drinking isn’t as fun if that is not in the equation. And as we all know, doing cocaine can lead to long nights ave early mornings. I guess I never saw myself as having a problem until recently, since i wasn’t a daily OR even weekly user I felt I didn’t really have a problem- but I’m starting to think i do unfortunately
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Wow you and I can relate so much!
It’s been day 4 for me and I got through a whole weekend. I started to journal and it’s helped, I wrote a pros and cons list of picking up a drink and well the only pro was to numb things. Without it I have actually enjoyed “feeling” without feeling like crap from a hangover.
Happy to know I have another person to support and listen to my journey, so many strong and wonderful people on this app.
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I think you may have answered your own question on the moderate drinking. For me…I wonder and think about the same thing…but I KNOW my answer. As much as I miss it and think I can handle it I know that once I start I wont stop until I have blacked out. Hope u make the right choice…u can do it!
@Jessica welcome! I feel your Struggle! I’m almost completing my 5th day! The struggle is real! I know what you mean about cooking and having a drink or two that lead into more! Good luck to you! I’ve found this to be an amazing community so far!
I did that too, you’re not alone! I’ve been sober for a bit over 2 1/2 years now and so happy I don’t have to drink those bottles of wine anymore:) you’re doing great, day by day and reaching out for help like you are! Congrats!! Sending you love 
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