Same here! But each success makes it easier.
Also, I ended up just coming home, playing guitar and reading a book. I already have texts from friends that blacked out asking what happened, puts shit in perspective. So have you set the date for our little challenge? 
Do the smoothie option!
If youâre full, itâs much more rare that youâll crave alcohol.
Gutted. Had to restart my clock. Didnât even enjoy it so total waste of time. Will power was rubbish. You wre right, nonalcoholic wine is very yucky. Ashamed 
Letâs do this. Two weeks is minimum. ( not sure where you are in the world but itâs Sunday 12 38 pm here.
Ashamed? Why? Youâve just worked out NA booze doesnât work. Thatâs a positive! Reset and move forward @Brave.
Brave no worries! We got your back. You can do this!
I know it makes the moderators a little mad when I post these in the threads.
That stuff is rank. I had a glass and ended off doing that face that my dog does when he tastes something nasty and slaps his lips lol. One bonus is that after being off wine for 6 days, it tasted different- not enjoyable at all. I was actually pleased that I didnât like it because it should be easier to start again now that I have had that experience. It was like my body was telling me it was poison.
Best foot forward!
Hi @jaimelee. You out there? How are you holding up after this discussion, if you donât mind me asking.
@Brave am I missing something here? Why are you resetting and feeling ashamed after drinking NA wine?
Call your Sponsor, or someone else in the program. Try not to drink today, or for the next hour, sometimes if you can not drink for just an hour at a time. you can put together a while day. You can do this.
I drink n/a wine, itâs basically juice.
Thatâs not a reset and Iâm not sure why youâre ashamed? If you donât like the flavor, great, but no need to reset your clock. Youâre totally right, it doesnât taste exactly like wine. I havenât had one I donât like yet, but we all have different tastes.
NoâŚit tasted so bad I had real wine! Bad x
It tasted rubbish so I had a glass or two of real stuff. Tasted cap too but Iâm not cheating myself.
Oh okay, I see. Then good for you for being honest about it
Now itâs a new challenge which I will not fail this time x
@Brave Ah. That makes way more sense, thanks for clarifying.
Take it as a life lesson - now you know n/a drinks like that are a trigger and to stay away from them.
im here! haha. its been a strange journey, i am almoat a week sober. going to SMART meetings after going back to drinking for two weeks. i think the hardest part is getting myself out of isolation
The only thing I could say to that is I been in that situation where I control it and I get too comfortable and when Iâm too comfortable I end up very vulnerable and what supposably is control becomes into abuse and i fall in to the same cycle the same pattern so just be careful but if you can control it more power to you and just be cautious.
Hi @jaimelee glad to hear that! Thanks for checking in to let us know. Just read some of your previous posts - may there there is some other channel to work on the isolation? Not sure were you live and how active thing are, but there are ways to reach out and make sober connections/friends, especially if you have any free time, besides the sobriety meetings. Some ideas could be volunteering for something you care about (children, animals, community, etc) - groups are always looking for help (example V) Or using something like meetup.com to find people with similar interests, or taking a class, or a team sport or activity. Or maybe old sober friends to reconnect with. Again unsure of your sit but these come to mind.