Today I finally have a month down which has honestly felt like a year. It’s been hard starting over again after 17 months sober. A lot of relapses followed the last several months; never stringing more than a few weeks at a time. I finally drove deep back into A.A. which like this community, has helped me feel less alone in my struggle. It’s amazing how much better life can get when you stop self-destructing. Life still has a habit of kicking me in the nards from time to time but it’s amazing how much easier is to deal with things when you’re sober and not a miserable wretch. Something good can come from even the worst if things and I truly believe that now.
Tomorrow, I am going to try and kick tobacco chew. It’s the last bad habit drilling a hole in my wallet and I’m tired of being dependent on any substance. Thanks everyone for sharing your stories and support.
glad your back at it!