I was the same when smoking weed, many years I hid in my house would not even go into my own garden would not open the curtains. Guess what once I’d quit I now am very social with my neighbours, and have picked up some new hobbies too. You may be an introvert, but the weed makes it even harder to connect with people.
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i think most of us can relate man. i definietly have had my share of relapses getting out of jail and going riiiiight back.
i finally got tired of being locked up and was looking at 4 years of prison so that’s what got me to clean up
it’s great that you’re getting right back into recovery man. we all support you.
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Hey everyone, I’m back after 6 months of letting the addiction win. Many failed attempts to quit over the past 6 months. Today will be 3 days sober and this time I refuse to relapse.
About a year ago, the absolute woman of my dreams started to show interest in me. We met about 10 years ago at our job, only had one short conversation but then added each other on Instagram. I had a “love at first sight” moment the instant I first saw her that no one else has ever given me. My reaction was “that’s EXACTLY what I want my wife to look like but she would never want to be with me”. I’ve struggled throughout my whole life with feeling inferior and thinking very little of myself.
When she started to show interest in me last year it made me extremely happy but I continued to smoke. A few days ago she unfollowed me on IG. She gave me so many chances to get sober and healthy. The pain I’ve felt over the past few days has been intense. I’ve been feeling devastated knowing I hurt her and ruined my chances of connecting with her. For years I’d get this thought before taking a hit that’d say “all your hopes and dreams up in a cloud of smoke”. I stayed in denial and have had to learn the hard way how true that thought is.
So today is day 3 of turning my life around once and for all. No more excuses and no more allowing myself to relapse. I have been ruining my life for the past 10 years and I’m beyond exhausted. So much pain that could have been avoided. It has to end now. I’m almost a 33 year old grown man. I haven’t felt truly happy in a very long time. But I’m remaining hopeful that sobriety is the answer. I just know there’s an incredible, fulfilling life waiting for me as long as I stop smoking and keep healing.
I hope you all are doing very well 
I will be okay. One day at a time.
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Good choice Kevin, asking for help is paramount. I might reword it as I need help to discover sobriety so that I can build a satisfying life for myself. Glad you’re here.
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That’s definitely a better way to word it. Thank you! I’m looking forward to staying sober. I know it will help me build a better life.
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