I’ve struggled with marijuana addiction since 2016. I started using after I left my ex and became very lonely. I’m highly introverted and am not a very social person. Weed has been like a toxic girlfriend to me. I’ve known for years that I’ve needed to stop using but I kept giving in year after year. But I’ve finally made a commitment to stop using and get my life under control. I am struggling to reach out for help and I’m still very lonely and isolated. I started going to an NA meeting last week and plan on continuing. It’s hard for me to make friends since I struggle with social anhedonia. I have to force myself to talk to people and often feel like I have to put on a happy mask to hide how deeply miserable I am. I spend most of my time alone but desperately want to change this. Weed has helped me cope with the loneliness but it’s long past time to give it up because it’s keeping me stuck and isolated. I need to get clean so l can feel good about myself and feel like I can be a positive part of other’s lives.
I used to think this was my personality for over 30 years but once I quit weed I found out I’m actually quite an adventurous and chatty person.
Physically it will get out of your system without to much harm but mentally it’ll be a bit of a bitch and your gonna have some crazy dreams once you figure out how to sleep. I didn’t sleep properly for about 40 nights but now I drop off as soon as my eyes are shut. I wish you well on your journey
This is good, fake it till you make it, one day it will become natural. But be selective with the people you do interact with bc if they don’t add anything positive to this new you then move on.
Good move. See if you can get a sponsor to work the 12 steps with you Kevin. That’ll occupy your time and your mind and help you figure out why you were smoking so much weed in the first place
Wow, I can definitely relate on this. Well, don’t worry about doing that here, this is a place of recovery my friend, we’re with you in this journey
Getting clean isn’t going to fix you Kevin, that’s why I had to work the 12 step program because I was miserable in recovery until I worked with other people. Weed was helping you cope, once it’s gone, you’ll need to replace it with something. For me, the program of 12 steps of NA and a power greater than myself is the perfect fit.
Thank you so much! I’m hoping that getting sober will allow me to finally break free from my shell. I know that getting high everyday and keeping myself sick hasn’t been helping me overcome the social anxiety. I’ve just started sleeping better the past couple days but it’s gonna take a while to get back to normal. And yes, I need to be careful who I spend my time with. There’s plenty of positive-minded people that I’ve been avoiding so I have to make the effort to connect with them.
Thank you!! I think getting a sponsor would be a great idea. I’ve been living such an abnormal life for so long and feel like I need help developing a normal life. I’m grateful to have this community where I know I won’t have to put on a mask for anyone. I know that getting clean won’t fix everything and that it’s real important to also work a program/go to therapy so I can keep moving forward in a positive direction.
Thank you!! I’m happy to be a part of this community. It’s good to know I’m not ever alone in this and that there are always people that will care about me.
Welcome to the forum, Keven. That’s great that you’ve started going to NA. I hope it’s helpful for you. This is a good community and perhaps being active on an online forum will help you feel more comfortable becoming more social in person–perhaps a stepping stone.
You’ve got this. Hang in there and take it one day at a time.
hang around here too man, lots of good advice and fun stuff going on - lots of new people to help, too. eventually as you get some time under your belt you’ll see how you can help other people on their journey as well.
Thank you!! Yes, I think I need to stay active here, keep going to NA and work on being more social. I don’t like isolating myself so much. It’s awesome to be a part of such a supportive community where I don’t have to fake how I’ve been feeling. Absolutely one day at a time.
Hi Kevin! Welcome! I’ve been also struggled with weed for years and it has made ne really anti-social and introverted. Before daily smoking I was a chatty person and liked to meet new people. You can quit weed, I believe in you! Just take one day at a time and participate in your NA meetings. You got this!
Thanks so much! I’m hoping that being sober will help me become a more social person. Isolating myself for so many years has been real tough. I appreciate your support!
I’m currently 34 days sober. Staying sober has been surprisingly easy but I’m having a difficult time dealing with the aftermath of almost a decade of destroying my life. I just registered for online therapy today and I’m waiting on my first appointment. I have absolutely no urge to smoke anymore and everything in me wants to get better asap. Taking it one day at a time. Trying to stay positive but it’s tough. I’ve had a rough relationship with myself throughout my life. I know that staying committed to sobriety is going to help me heal my relationship with myself.
43 days sober tonight. Just wanted to give a quick update and put this out here that I’ve started having cravings again because I’ve been going through a rough time. I’ve been feeling extremely lonely and have been fighting the urge to smoke. I had my first therapy session in about three years today and it went really well. I’ve been having a difficult time reaching out to anyone to talk about what I’ve been going through. Life has been painful this past week and normally I would smoke to deal with it all but I’m really trying to stay sober. I feel like I’m at risk of breaking my sobriety if I don’t handle this pain properly.
I relapsed after 50 days clean. I have a lot of work to do on myself to heal. Going to keep working on this with my therapist. I need help to build a normal life for myself so that being sober won’t be as difficult.
