July 12th I almost killed myself on my motorcycle because I chose my demon and got hammered and then thought I could ride to the gas station for a snack. I woke up intubated in the ICU with a broken neck and back and in that moment my only thought was, I did this because alcohol controls me again and will forever be my nemesis. By the grace of God, my life was spared and I escaped paralysis. I’ve managed to stay sober since the accident and never want to go back. It hasn’t been easy, and my mental health is a work in progress, but it’s one day at a time. All my love to everyone!
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Welcome and congratulations on your sobriety. I am glad you lived to share your story here.
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Wow thats alot. Glad you came out the otherside and have 107 days sober. This is truly your second chance at life.
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Thank you! It really truly is my second chance at life and that wake up call was long past due.
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Thank you! I’m glad too. Lol.
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What a wake up call, glad you are alive and changed your life 
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That is quite a lesson to learn. Not everyone gets “hit over the head” (or neck and back) like you did. I hope this is the wake up call you needed and you never go back. I’m glad you found us.
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Remember it bro! That’s a Propper drive to hold onto, phone screen a pic of you in your hospital bed? Are you still riding? Had alot of falls myself (nothing as bad as that) but I have always felt the help on my mental state from riding!?
There are a few groups I have noticed aswell that target mental helth and push at riding to help…
How are your injuries doing now? Know alot of mine niggle here and there but that’s just helping us to remember the lows to get the highs?
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Congrats and keep it up. I’m glad nobody else was hurt during that accident. To be honest I wanted go initially the judgment way but then I realized whether it’s a motorcycle or words/attitude etc anything can hurt with same intensity. So, not judging 
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Wow so glad your ok !!my sober date is the 15 th of July ,I’ve also never had this many days congratulations sobriety buddy 
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That is terrifying. It sounds like it shook you awake though, and you are making a change. Welcome to Talking Sober!
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ALL we have is TODAY.
Personally, I try to not get hung up on how many days I have, total. I try and remain in today. And, sometimes, I have to break each day into manageable minutes. I let my app count the total days.
Also, I would try and be mindful of telling myself, “I haven’t been able to get more than 110 days yet.” I wouldn’t set it up as some looming obstacle.
I would also reach out to my support system.
As for what I think you should do: Be Kind To Yourself
Best of luck!
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It won’t let me upload any pics since Im new I guess. But yeah, the left side of my face still feels messed up due to nerve damage and that’s a stark reminder to not pick up the bottle. And yeah, riding really made me happy so I’m depressed that I don’t have a bike anymore. It was totaled and Ive been out of work, so it’ll be a while before I get another one I’m sure.
I also suffered a traumatic brain injury from 2 brain bleeds but I got so lucky that it didn’t affect any of my fine motor skills. My injuries are doing quite well. Wednesday is my last day of therapy actually.
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Yeah if your new it will drip feed things for a bit ,you will gain more ability s the more you post and number of days you come on the forum
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One of my favorite AA responses:
Q. How long have you been sober?
A. Since I got up this morning.
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