Welcome to the community Joana!
Wow!!! Impressive that you have overcome so many addictions and are now 12 days vape free 
So sorry for your loss. I’m certain you and your family will be grateful for a healthier you. Glad you found us. This is a wonderful supportive community to be a part of. The community is filled with fellow addicts who understand the struggle and look out for each other.
Take some time to read around and jump in when you feel ready. My two favorite threads are Checking in daily to maintain focus #72 to stay accountable and connect with the members and Daily Gratitude, The Air Of Recovery #8 
as practicing gratefulness helps train our mind to think positively.
Hope to see you around 
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